I was...twelve, when

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I was...twelve, when

I was...twelve, when I came onto the CB for the first time.

I was Lucy B., that girl with short hair

Who wanted to dye it rainbow

Who wished fantasy was real

Who wanted to share her art with the world

It's been two years, I think.

I'm fourteen.

Still that girl with short hair

Who wants to dye her hair obnoxious colors

Who wishes her imagination could come to life

Who wants to become an artist

But a lot has changed.

I've had my fair share of identity issues,

Who hasn't?

I've finally come to terms with some things I didn't want to believe

I've lost confidence,

Lost friends,

But in time, gained confidence

And made better friends,

And I never thought I would leave here.

It's been a long time since I've typed in this format,

Name, Age, Location

It's been long enough to feel a little foreign.

And even as I'm typing

My fingers are shaking.

More than they do when I'm crying

Or playing a piece faster than I'm used to.

It feels weird, too.

I know this place.

I've come, been part of too many roleplays,

Made alter egos,

Even had a hiatus.


I don't know whether I belong anymore.

I'll come back sometimes.

Maybe on my birthday?

My CBversary?

Valentine's Day, even though it's passed.

I'll come back every year.

I promise. 

After all, this place...

It's a part of me, it was at least, 

And I love every metaphorical inch of it,

Every person inside it,

There's a bond that I don't want to break. 

But, for now, my friends,

This is goodbye. 


-Lucy B./FountainPen/Everything I've been before 

Auf wiedersehen, Lucy (which means till we meet again)!


submitted by Everything I've been, age 14, Everywhere I've been
(March 3, 2019 - 10:46 pm)

this is poetic. :3

submitted by Aquamarine, age XII, In the Clouds
(March 4, 2019 - 9:18 am)

I didn't say it, but I'll be sticking on this thread for a week or two for farewells and such.  I wish y'all the best of luck during the time that I'm not here <3

submitted by aFountainPen, age 14, Formerly Lucy B.
(March 4, 2019 - 12:13 pm)

Bye Lucy! I shall await your return!

submitted by Rogue Wildling
(March 4, 2019 - 12:57 pm)

Bye Lucy. I'll miss you!
And the way you wrote this was very cool, and poetic.
Hope to see you again soon when you come for a visit.

submitted by Dandelion
(March 4, 2019 - 4:31 pm)

I'll miss you too! <3

Thanks about the poetry, I've been writing a lot lately.  I'll see you around! 

submitted by aFountainPen, age 14, Formerly Lucy B.
(March 6, 2019 - 12:07 am)

NOOOOO! Please come back! We'll miss you! 

(It was your roleplay that I joined first and actually halped me join the CB!)

Goodbye! Please visit!

*Waves crazily and sadly at the same time*

Good luck! 

submitted by Moonlight
(March 4, 2019 - 7:43 pm)

Noooo you're leaving?!

Please come back to visit as often as you can!! And always remember that you rock!! 

submitted by Twirlgirl, age 13, My Imaginary Dance Studio
(March 5, 2019 - 3:52 pm)

I'll make sure to visit, you guys rock too!  I'll see you next time!

submitted by aFountainPen, age 14, Formerly Lucy B.
(March 6, 2019 - 12:09 am)

I'll miss you as well, Moonlight!  I'll make sure to visit when I have time!

*Waves back* 

submitted by aFountainPen, age 14, Formerly Lucy B.
(March 6, 2019 - 12:08 am)

That was beautiful... Goodbye, and farewell, dear short-haired girl of the colorful words. We’ll miss you. 

submitted by Viola?, age Secret, Secret
(March 5, 2019 - 4:29 pm)

And goodbye to the illustrious Post-It Queen!  Seriously, I really looked up to your art on the Art Thread.  I shall miss you as well <3

submitted by aFountainPen, age 14, Formerly Lucy B.
(March 6, 2019 - 12:19 am)

Aw, goodbye! *hugs* I wish you the best in life, and we'll be here whenever you decide to visit. Until then, farewell.

submitted by Quill
(March 5, 2019 - 4:37 pm)

*Hugs back* I wish you the best as well.  I'll see you around.

submitted by aFountainPen, age 14, Formerly Lucy B.
(March 6, 2019 - 12:23 am)

Mmm. Lucy. I'm going to miss you. I hope you visit sometimes but even so...I'm really going to miss having you here on the CB. <3

submitted by Leafpool, age No, not a cat
(March 5, 2019 - 5:24 pm)

I'm going to miss you too.  I remember you were here the entire time I was so you're one of the CBers I remember the most.  I'll see you around.

submitted by aFountainPen, age 14, Formerly Lucy B.
(March 6, 2019 - 12:26 am)