Chatterbox: Chirp at Cricket

EXPLANATIONS

okay, first off, im really sorry for the name post. i wasnt in a very good mood that week [seeing my best friend didn't call me for the entire week and she's my entire support system] and im really sorry for it [again] 

second off, im thinking abt taking a hiatus. [explanations later.] 

third off, im really sorry if i offended anyone by doing anything idiotic. 

OKAY

actual explanations. 

MASSIVE TW// MENTIONS OF CONDITIONS/DISORDERS [IM PRETTY SURE THAT'S WHAT YOU CALL IT] AND OTHER SUCH THOUGHTS  

why am i taking a hiatus? 

firstly

life's getting harder. this year, i have a bio teacher who teaches nothing at all and gives us literally 500 questions and expects us to get it correctly. i have a math teacher who's really really strict and i have to remember to turn on my homework on time. i have to behave well and i still constantly get told off by my parents. i just want to curl up into a ball and cry under my covers, what's wrong with that? 

secondly

*ahahah* here comes the real tws... 

bipolar. anxiety. adhd. depression. 

im officially diagnosed with them. im trying to remember to take my pills and not go off on someone because im mad/frustrated/whatever. im trying to remember to ask questions and participate in class and to remember that it's alright and that even when my parents yell at me they still love me, and im trying to not slip in the middle of a conversation 

but oh my gosh, its so hard. on top of all the stress and whatnot...it's just so, so, hard. 

ive had multiple people compliment me on being confident- that helps so much. knowing that my facade [i act very childish and immature and loud and bold] can hold. 

but what happens when the walls won't hold and the glitter fades? 

[tell me if you get the reference :)]

the answer? 

you're left with reality. you're dumped into the real world too soon. 

thirdly

crushes...

lol im crushing on two boys simultaneously. one i have no chance with even tho im best friends w/ him. the other one is an absolute introvert yet the most adorable thing ive ever seen. 

so yeah i have no chance with any of them. 

welcome to my life ig....

yeah anyways i might be taking a little hiatus/being a little less active

ill be active on any rps/solowrites/skilodges that im in or any threads ive created, im also gonna be active on the random thoughts page because...random thoughts. 

<3 love yall platonically ofc

∙ lynx ∙