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I won't judge

submitted by Anonymous, age x, x
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)

I am pretty awkward in public. Not really social anxiety, maybe like a minor version of that, I dunno. But I never know how to make small talk.

The weird thing is, I am more comfortable chatting with my mom's friends than other girls around my age that are in a group I'm in. 

Once I had to teach younger girls (like 4-6) about some of America's history and I froze for like thirty seconds but those thirty seconds felt like forever. This pales in comparison to other posts, but I just felt like I'd post this.

I'm fine when I prerecord presentations and then edit and present. But live...nope. 

 

submitted by Incognito, age ∞, Universe
(November 25, 2020 - 7:08 pm)

Oof, I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you can find things that help you feel more comfortable. Some people imagine everyone in their underwear (i personally think that doesn't work with most people), some people imagine a calm beach or other peaceful environments, some people just have to learn how to get better at that stuff. I hope you find something that works for you c:

submitted by Clovertoe, age 24 Moons, WindClan
(November 26, 2020 - 9:09 am)

Thanks :)

submitted by Incognito, age ∞, Universe
(November 26, 2020 - 4:29 pm)

Sometimes I feel like on the CB I ty to fit in and then everyone seems to see me as that kid who tries to be cool but isn't. I don't know if people really think this, but it feels like it. Also on my first few posts I did a couple things wrong and when Admin told me about it (admin it isn't you're fault, I'm not trying to make it sound like it is because you're awesome and you make all this happen) but after that it felt like everyone was like, "oh, it's *insert my cb name here*. Ugh." I just tried to do what other people did, but when I did it just seemed to get worse. It's better now, but I still feel that way sometimes.

submitted by Not, Telling
(November 28, 2020 - 10:44 am)

Oh gosh, I'm so sorry you feel that way! Now I obviously can't speak for everyone, and I'm not certain, but I don't think I'd be wrong if I said most people on the CB judge like that. Again I don't know, but I can say for sure I don't. I judge a lot irl (a flaw im working on), but online, not so much. ANYWAYS this isn't abt me dftgyuhjik

What I'm saying is... Well yeah I think I phrasedit the best I could. I know I can't exactly magically cure you, but I'll do the best I can. My best is that I don't judge you, or really anyone here. :) 

submitted by Clovertoe, age 24 Moons, WindClan
(November 30, 2020 - 7:18 pm)

I am on a mountain.

Let me clarify. I am not literally on a mountain. The mountain is a metaphor.

For what?

I don't know. Not really. Isolation? A state of not caring? A state of cowardly safety?

Why?

I know the answer to this one. I read the ultimate guide. Read about the wars.

And they're happening. Again. ALL OF THEM.

AT THE SAME TIME.

And i'm tired.

And things aren't fair. (actually things are fair here. I mean in general.)

And my favorite show ended (I promise that eventually i'll stop whining about that.)

And I realized something. I dont like myself very much.

I'm not funny like Rodney.

I'm not normal like Smiley.

No matter how hard I try i can't just stop caring like Tux.

I'm using them as masks because I don't know who I am.

I'm staying on the mountain for now.

But i WILL be back.

Because I do care.

And i have so many people counting on me.

Have a lovely day. 

submitted by Howdee. Just me., age 13, on a mountain
(December 1, 2020 - 10:26 am)

Howdy, Howdee. I'm not perfect at motivational speaking, but I can tell you this: The reason you don't see yourself in any fictional character is because you are unique, completley and utterly unlike anyone else in the world, and perfect in a way that no one else can be.  I agree things are sort of out of order in the CB, but no place is without it's flaws, and despite me being new, I can see past the trouble to the CBers that care about this community. You can stay on your mountian for as long as you like, but when you climb down, we'll be there at the bottom for you.

submitted by Silver Crystal, age Infinity, Milky Way
(December 1, 2020 - 12:57 pm)

You just said you were'nt good at motivational speaking.

And then you said the most motivational stuff ever. 

submitted by Howdee, age 13, Who wants to know?
(December 1, 2020 - 3:51 pm)

I feel like my words come off as insincere?? Like, I sound like I'm texting and rambling in literally everything I say, even if it is sincere, so, uh, yea? :p idk really XD

submitted by Rainbow Riot
(December 1, 2020 - 2:36 pm)

Some amount of weeks ago, under an anonymous name, I started a ski-lodge-like thing, but I never even posted the first part. I'm sorry.

submitted by . . .
(December 1, 2020 - 6:29 pm)

I don't have feelings.

Yes. I don't have feelings. I've learnt to lock them up, to banish them, after they were hurt time by time. I'm a void of emotionless.

All those times I showed emotion, they were fake. I was only trying, to make myself seem better.

But that's it. I don't want to be old me. I don't want to get my feelings hurt again.

Time after time after time they were hurt. Now, they can't be. Now, I can't feel sorrow or happiness or angriness. 

I've improved, according to myself. 

The real reason I locked up my feelings? Long story.

Here it is, I suppose.

Once, over the summer, I sneaked into a chat with my alt account and saw my two supposed friends (immature me was very unsuspecting) chatting about how horrible I am and how me and some other person liked each other (we actually did, but seriously, she was ridiculing me for it. Probably because she liked him. Romance stories, amiright? So I was seriously hurt by that, and that happened time after time after time until I finally unleashed The Power Of Rage (also known as my rage mode) upon them. I never spoke to them again. And I locked up my feelings because of that. 

This is probably a fourth of the reasons of why I left. 

~Nightfall 

submitted by Nightfall
(December 2, 2020 - 12:56 am)

I'm...

Really sorry to hear that. But everyone feels something.

Maybe you can feel hope again.

Hope that The new generation of cbers is a kind one.

Hope that this is not all there is.

Hope that broken hearts can be mended.

I'm really sorry to hear that. 

submitted by Lord Entropy
(December 8, 2020 - 7:50 am)

I feel like my friend isn't my real friend.

For a long time we were enemies, and then we became friends a year or 2 ago. Since she lives next door, we play together almost every day. But there are a lot of times when she isn't very nice. For example, she always does things you tell her not to do, and also rarely asks to do something before she does it. Also, she doesn't seem to care about my feelings. At all. She's just flat-out said my art was bad multiple times (I like feedback, but she just said it was bad. She didn't say how I could make it better at all.), and today she kept saying "you are tiny and because you are little you must mind your manners" or calling me a baby. I am short, and I'm fine with that, but I hate it when she makes fun of me for it. And before we became friends she said, "You're so short I could step on you." I guess it isn't as bad as I make it saound, but it still isn't fun and I'm scared that because she used to bully me she might start again. 

And yes, I am the same "Not Telling" as the person before. This is about the same thing, just more in-detail. Eek sorry for the long post Admins!

She doesn't sound like a very good friend. I'd spend more time with someone else.

Admin

submitted by Not Telling
(December 7, 2020 - 5:19 pm)

I'm alone. 

I'm alone in what I do, who I identify as, who I am.

I'm alone in what I enjoy, who I am, why I'm here. 

I'm an orphan. 

And I'm alone.

 

submitted by ...
(December 7, 2020 - 11:57 pm)

If you feel like you're alone, remember we're always be here for you <3

submitted by @...
(December 10, 2020 - 3:53 pm)