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submitted by Anonymous, age x, x
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
so do i :) we could be sad for no reason together maybe !!
(June 12, 2022 - 10:55 pm)
Me too! Sometimes I cry for no reason, which is kind of strange, but at least I feel better after :) Also, we have the same location!
(June 13, 2022 - 7:51 am)
Has Empty Pages ever hit harder than now? For me, I think not. :/
At least I've got that song and my trusty rubber bands.
"I close / my eyes /
And my thoughts scatter all around, throughout my mind~
Do you hear them too? / Is it me or is it you?
Deceit'n shattered love'll prove that loyalty is nothing~
A thousand Empty Pages / Filled with a memory that's fadin'
Ink begins to splatter / Voices say it doesn't matter / oh~
Was I the one who- / Am I the one who-
Became the one who / I've spent my life runnin' from?
Memories, tragedies, guilty pleads / In my book that bleeds:
Do not read~ "
It's a dang good song tho' :) Love Halfy and Winks too!
(June 13, 2022 - 12:08 am)
I don't know why but, I feel like I, well, Wirting watchs The owl house, or read Percy Jackson. I feel like I have to aswell.....And if I don't..I won't be able to talk about it with you guys. Like with my friends aswell.
Has anyone ever felt sick or sad when your friends are hanging out with other friends, or they get a call or text asking if they want to hang out? I want my friends to be happy, but if there going to be happy but your going too feel so sad you might throw up, Is it even worth it?
(June 14, 2022 - 3:24 pm)
i'm dying inside
i hate my life
no one understands me
everyone judges me
i feel very alone
(June 17, 2022 - 10:52 am)
(June 17, 2022 - 3:47 pm)
Oh Darkvine I'm sorry you're going through...whatever it is you're going through. I wish I could help somehow. But all I can do is tell you we care about you and that if you ever need anyone to talk to, we're here for you.
Trust me, things will get better. Just don't stop dreaming. Reach for the sky. Speak out for yourself.
Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.
(June 21, 2022 - 3:09 pm)
Ahhhhhhh...
So a bit has happened, and I think I'm having a crisis of faith.
Basically it's me trying to reconcile Christianity and the LGBTQ+ parts of me. Like, most of my life up 'til now I've been either completely isolated from the LGBTQA+ community (albeit it's just because I hadn't been aware that other people were like me) or trying to find loopholes that make being on the spectrum not a 'sin.' I just cannot comprehend how other so-called "Christians" can hate a group so immensely much for doing nothing wrong, and just being themselves.
Isn't Christianity less about being 'good' and more about loving others and showing them a path to a better afterlife? Humans can never be perfect, and thus trying to do so is futile, however placing one's faith in God and helping him to reach others is somewhat of a redemption. How then can people just hate hate HATE, and then have the impudence to claim to be a spreader of love, huh? Did Jesus not die on the cross for all 'sins,' anyway? Did he not converse and dine with the thieves and beggers and diseased and lowest amongst all people? Did he not say 'what you have done to the least of my brethren, you have done to me'???
So yeah, basically I'm not convinced that LGBTQA+ stuff is a sin or problem at all, plus even if it was, why would a Christian discriminate against those people? It really just doesn't make sense to me, and I really can’t stand that atmosphere. A lot of things written in the Bible are pretty misogynistic as well, and how could anyone stand up for that? I still believe in more of the other stuff, like that it's pretty uncool to steal or lie or cheat, etc. but I don't think I can truly claim to be a Christian anymore, since I'm just picking and choosing what I believe to be true.
Also, didn't Jesus essentially say 'leave the old Jewish laws in the past, and come do things my way if you want to follow me'? *squints in irritation* Doesn't that mean stuff like the idea that being gay is wrong, or traditional gender roles, etc. don't need to be set in stone or followed anymore? 'Cause I'm pretty sure most Christians aren't too terribly concerned about other Jewish laws, like which animals can or cannot be eaten, or that certain types of everyday fabrics cannot be mixed. >:(
It's kind of a shame that it took this long for me to fully get here. So many times I've talked people who were wavering or falling out with religion to believe again, and I've even done missionary work in several countries to try to help others and introduce them to my faith, but then... What if I was wrong all along, and now I've brought yet another invasive and harmful way of thinking into others lives? What if it just makes things worse for those at risk? If even I can't be sure of my own religion, is it not irresponsible to have spread it to the minds of others?
Ahhhhhh :/
(June 22, 2022 - 12:26 am)
Okay.
So I read your entire post and I think I can shed some light on your situation? I personally am not Christian so I don't know what authority I have to be making these comments, but... here we go.
Okay, first and foremost, religion is a powerful thing. It has brightened the lives of so many people, gave them hope in their darkest hour, things of that nature... it's really beautiful to see the positive effects it has on people. I mean, for Christianity in particular it gave hope to many slaves in America, seeing their own experiences parallel to that of slaves in the Bible, leading them to trust that even though their lives were literal, and i mean literal, hell on earth, they would someday be free and they would know peace. So many people's everyday lives are brightened with the thought of Jesus watching over them and guiding them. For my great grandmother, that was sort of her whole world. It means so much to so many people.
That said, if one can manipulate a group of people's faith it essentially gives them control of the person. There are countless examples of this throughout history. I mean, Jesus is the "Lord and Savior," right? He is worshipped and revered, obeyed and followed. Convince people you're, like, a messenger of Jesus, or that your beliefs are his beliefs, you become the Lord. This has such a powerful hold on people, often more so than a literal ruler of a kingdom or region could hope to achieve. So, many, many people have taken advantage of that.
The Bible has been translated and edited and interpreted hundreds of times. This means the words of the Bible you read today are other people's take on what the Bible they read meant to them. Priests and politicians and everyday people then have their own interpretation of that bible, and lead others to believe that theirs is the only truth. There are many branches of Christianity, are there not?
I don't have a source or anything to prove this, but if it means anything to you I have had multiple people tell me that originally, the Bible quote people use to say homosexuality is a sin actually meant, you know, being a pedo is a sin. I've also met a gay priest.
Think about it this way: Some christians use the bible as an excuse to be racist, and this makes absolutely no sense; I mean if you think about it, Jesus couldn't have even been white, right? It's just people's interpretation of the religion. The King James bible is just someone's interpretation of religion. (King James. I assume, whether intentionally or not, he edited the bible in a way that would keep his subject under control.)
I see no possible way being gay, trans or nonbinary could possibly be a sin. Homosexuality is not a way fo hurt people. It's the beautiful miracle that is LOVE. If Jesus and God are loving, benevolent beings who creates, help and guide us, I see no possible way they could hate that, no possible way they wouldn't embrace that.
I have to go for now, but I have a few thoughts on the crisis of faith thing? i might post them later
(June 22, 2022 - 7:05 pm)
Jaybells, many Christian individuals and sects embrace LGBTQA+ people and groups, including them in all positions of the church. In fact, it may well be the great majority of Christianity. You make very good points in your comment, and I hope you reach reconciliation between your true self and your faith soon.
(June 22, 2022 - 7:41 pm)
(June 23, 2022 - 11:07 am)
Thanks for the advice and support everyone! I'll just be mulling it all over more. :/
(June 24, 2022 - 7:12 pm)
The reason I don't like to talk about what made me mad, is because if I talk about it, I'll remember it more, and if I don't talk about it, I'll move on and forget about it.
(June 22, 2022 - 8:22 pm)
I can't speak. The older I got, the harder it got. Even with famliy and friends..
(June 24, 2022 - 7:52 am)
Oh Reuby! I never knew that! I'm sorry. I could never fully understand what that must be like, but I know that it can be very hard to be different.
Being homeschooled and vegan has set me apart from others in a way that can sometimes be very lonely, and yours must be twenty times that. So know that anyone who truly loves you will accept you the way you are, even if it takes them a little while.
We're here for you.
Love,
Star
(June 24, 2022 - 4:31 pm)