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I won't judge

submitted by Anonymous, age x, x
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)

Ha! You? Disgusting? Dumb? Don't listen to 'em, Reuby! Being homeschooled doesn't make you dumb at all. They're just prejudiced.

submitted by Periwinkle, age Pi, Somewhere in the stars
(June 24, 2022 - 6:46 pm)

The other day my friend and I were talking about my story and she was like, "But if there's no schools, how can they learn anything?" And I'm just stand there like, "What the what, have you forgotten that I am STANDING RIGHT HERE, homeschooled from BIRTH? Are you saying I'm not smart?" but I just seethed in silence.

She wasn;t tryna be mean but she did seem rather ignorant. And the other day someone said, "She's homeschooled, so she doesn't know anything." I try not be bothered, but...Frown

Thanks Reuby. 

submitted by Star@Reauby, age 13 eons, The Milky Way, she/her
(June 24, 2022 - 7:44 pm)

Absolute rubbish, Star. I too have been homeschooled since birth, and only since last year have I been a public school student. Homeschooling is not nearly a lesser form of education, only a different one (and especially in this case different can mean better!). Of course, it depends on the individual student which is best, and I'm sure you know well how awesome homeschooling can be.

Anyway, I jumped into school as a sophomore assuming I'd be at a disadvantage, since I'd never considered myself a "good" student and I wasn't used to going to school every day. At the end of that school year I received more awards for my high averages than anyone else in my grade (note that grades do not define intelligence). 

A lot of the most intelligent people I know have been homeschooled for much of their lives (hello Jay :P), so if anyone believes that homeschoolers are intellectually challenged in general they're either ignorant or pulling your leg. 

I'd suggest researching some statistics to have on hand if ever you encounter someone who needs enlightening on the subject. You are most absolutely smart, Star, and don't ever be ashamed of having been too cool for school. <3

submitted by Jwyn, age 17, Somewhere Out There
(June 25, 2022 - 2:16 pm)

Agh, the whole "non-homeschoolers naturally assuming homeschoolers are stupid" things ANNOYS ME BEYOND WORDS. Last year I started going to public school part time. It was only two classes, (and track & field for part of the year) but by the time the school year was over, the main reason I was excited for summer was that I didn't have to be around my ignorant classmates anymore. They presumed that I was incredibly naive all the time, and would make inappropriate jokes constantly and then snickered because they thought 1. I didn't understand because I was just a dumb homeschooler, or 2. They made me uncomfortable. Only the second was consistently true, but I never wanted to let on for fear they would continue talking to me. So I kept a straight face, didn't speak unless spoken to, and actually avoided eye contact the entire first week of school. It wasn't fun, but doing anything else terrified me. I'm sure they talked/chatted about me behind my back (as the only one without a phone, they could have said anything about me on social media and I would never have known.) 

But I continued with the second chances, knowing they were all kinda cool in their own ways and it would be better tomorrow. And so that went, until eventually near the end my hope gave out and I just wanted to be done with them entirely. And now it's summer and everything's great! No socializing except at work or unless I want to! No stuttering over myself, forgetting how to talk, or upholding a conversation! 

Ohhhh boy I sound kinda insane... but there you have it! Wow that got REALLY long...

so yes! Homeschoolers are some of the smartest, funniest, most creative people I've ever met! Ignore everyone who says otherwise! Clearly they've never had the opportunity to acknowledge the fact that being biased gets them nowhere! Keep it weird, confusing, and generally awesome.

My rant is finished. Thank you for reading, admins, it got unexpectedly lengthy. 

submitted by Darkling , Anywhere else
(June 25, 2022 - 8:34 pm)

Darkling,

I know how you feel.  I've never been homeschooled, but this year was just... rough.  I hate school.  I felt so very lonely most of the time.  I always wanted the kind of friend group you'll see in books and movies, where there's a moderately sized group of friends who are super-close, know everything about each other, do everything together, more like siblings than friends... yknow,  a place I could belong.  But that seemed impossible for me.  Like you said, forgetting how to talk, stuttering over myself... I was so bad at talking I couldn't even say hi to people.  Someone from elementary would say hi in the halls and i'll just stand there looking at them, probably literally trip over myself (i'm SO clumsy which did NOT help socially) and then wave when they've already walked away and there's no one there but the wall.  When someone did decide to talk to me for some reason, I couldn't think of anything to aay.  Id just respond "yeah" to anything they said.  It would end up being a one-sided conversation.

Actually, in 6th grade when it was online the whole year i had a shot at friends.  A wolf roleplay was created on Teams with 6 of us who didn't know each other, and that was amazing.  Every day we'd roleplay and hang out together, all day, every class, and it was amazing.  But it just... faded away.  There was me (Moonsong), Firelight, Lupa, Artemis, Apollo, and Ace.  Firelight I've known for awhile, we're still friends, but she goes to another school.  Apollo was my best friend since preschool, but... they have a lot of friends now (actually, everyone i used to be close with and everyone i admire and wish i was friends with now have one close friend group together which i want to be a part of more than anything in the world.) Artemis too, and last year was the first time id known her, but i really related to her and i thought we were best friends.  in reality, i don't think she even likes me.  ace is sick of all of us by now.

I did start the year with a few friends, actually.  Lupa and I, each sort of friendless, found each other on the first day and latched on to each other so we didn't have to be alone.  I had someone to sit with at lunch, which i'm so grateful  for.   She met someone in her class who started sitting with us too, we shall call her Sinister.  They're my best friends.  It's still awkward a lot of the time, but we're getting better at this.  

There was also someone id met on Teams, we shall call them Cosmos, who was a really good artist and writer, but they.. liked me, and that made it really awkward.  They also had a lot of emotional issues which they seeked help from me for and that stressed me out a lot, and i'll be honest, i didn't like them very much.  No one else really did either, which lowered my own social standing, but that made me feel like i had to like them because or else id be a bad person who only chose friends based on popularity.  Actually though, i think they're sick of me now!  Looks like my horrible personality and worse social skills won out over my *hair flip* good looks (which don't exist either.)

Plus, the feeling you described of being sort of beaten down, no hope left, waiting for it to be over-  I totally get that.  Every day I was just too clumsy, too stupid, too lonely, too lazy... every day was filled with self-loathing and crippling loneliness.  The feeling hasn't yet gone away.  Plus, I HATED school.  Everything we did was POINTLESS.  I was WASTING my life and mental health sitting there for hours every day.  I went home hating myself and the world, having a terrible stomach and headache, eyes dried out from staring at a computer and the lights the teachers would never turn off, yet they still had enough moisture for crying.  Every day without fail. 

Well that sorta got away from me but what i'm saying is no matter what they say about you or how hard socializing is you are AMAZING.  Im being honest here.  So maybe you can't carry a conversation, but you're SO good with words, every post you make is mysterious, intriguing and very funny, and I look forward to seeing what you have to say.  Darkling, you're incredible, and anyone who does talk to you or hang out with you or anything is lucky to have that opportunity.   Also, if you've read this whole weird rant thing with a million side trails kudos to you that's impressive:/ I'm glad the summers going well for you, read you around!

CAPTCHA says "weavr" :0000 Shadow Weaver? 

submitted by Tsuki@Darkling, age 13 autumns, Fright Zone
(June 27, 2022 - 9:08 am)

I don't know what it's like to never ever be able to speak, but I often have a lot of trouble speaking, or the words don't come out right even if I do talk, and it's not uncommon to just not be able to at all, so even if it's not exactly the same you're not alone on here <3 I know it can be really hard to not be able to share what you need to with the world in the way they expect. And from what I've seen on here, you have a lot to share with the world, and what you have to share is wonderful :)

I'm not quite sure what advice or such you're looking for here, but I'll do my best to help :) Also, my speaking troubles are heavily related to autism, so that might play in in a way that it might not for you if you're not autistic (which you could be, I don't know.) And also, I am nowhere near this eloquent in real life. In real life... you don't want to know XD

Also, even though it is hard, there's nothing inherently wrong with not being able to talk. I'm not saying it can't be hard, and it must be harder if you can never talk, but it doesn't make you bad is what I'm trying to say.

And this is kind of a side rant but it's annoying when people expect you to be able to talk, isn't it? Actually like yesterday I wasn't able to talk and somebody kept talking to me and kept trying to make me talk and I was trying to but I couldn't and it sent me into a meltdown (hard to explain but bad). I just wonder if you'd understand :\

Lastly, you can rant anytime you need to and I'll do my best to respond. I don't know if this is going to be the most helpful, but maybe it lets you know I care? Like Star said, we're here for you <3 

submitted by @Reuby, age Violincats, Blackfooted Bobcat
(June 24, 2022 - 7:50 pm)

Does anyone else have moments that are either too quiet or too loud, and it makes everything just fade away and make you feel so empty. Like, you can feel yourself slipping too, but the harder you claw to keep yourself out, the more rapidly you fall, but if you do nothing you can just feel the waves wash over you until there's a sudden lurch and then you're sinking.

submitted by Jaybells, Lost in a Nightmare
(June 24, 2022 - 7:15 pm)

How that perfectly describes how I feel is just...so...*trails off*

submitted by ShiningStar@Jaybells
(June 25, 2022 - 8:22 pm)
submitted by Yes
(June 25, 2022 - 9:22 pm)
submitted by nearly always, -Snazzycakes
(June 25, 2022 - 11:07 pm)

I think it's a bad sign that I have Demons (by Imagine Dragons) stuck in my head...


your eyes they shine so bright 

I wanna save that light

but with the beast inside

there's nowhere we can hide

 

when you feel my heat

look into my eyes

it's where my demons hide

it's where my demons hide 

 

kind of disturbing... 

submitted by Darkvine
(June 26, 2022 - 1:28 pm)

I know right? :/

submitted by Jaybells, Lost, somewhere
(June 27, 2022 - 5:22 pm)

Darkling, although I don't go to school, I recently went to a camp and experienced the same thing! Everyone made innapropriate jokes and assumed the same things as what you said, that I didn't get it bc I was homeschooled and dumb, or that it made me uncomfortable (TRUE). I remember they tricked me into saying a swear word because I didn't know what it meant! I as well was the only one without a phone, and who knows what they said behind my back?

It's really sad how people can be so ignorant to what's right in front of them. We homeschoolers are people, and we're smart. SCHOOL IS NOT NECCESSARY FOR SOMEONE TO BE SMART. We may seem dumb to them, simply because we do not know--or do not want to know--the things they do. I personally don't want to be some kind of person who can't go a sentence without swearing and can list every curse word ever existed!

Eventually, the people at camp came around and even liked me. But the fact is...the reason they tease us and think we're dumb is because we're strange to them. We're different. Maybe they feel threatened by us, like our "strangeness" will make them "strange" too. Maybe they're even a little nervous of us. Because we're different.

But...different can be a good thing. 

submitted by ShiningStar@Darkling, age 13 eons, The Milky Way, she/her
(June 26, 2022 - 9:53 pm)

went to school my entire life and can verify school isn't necessary for being smart half the stuff they teach you is so dumb and pointless 

submitted by Tsuki the Skywolf , fright zone
(June 27, 2022 - 9:10 am)

Hey, so, I need some advice: 

My best friend is leaving on July 2nd to go visit Hawaii for a month (they come back on July 29th). I talk to them generally everyday, usually for awhile, and I know I'm going to miss them- and its not like I can just text/call them anytime either because their time zone is 6 hours different from mine - now, it's 8:30 in the morning there, while its 2:30pm where I live. 

So my question is: How do I stay in touch? How do I get distracted? Who do I talk to while they are away? 

Please let me know what you think :/

Try sending them longer emails, like you're penpals for the month! You can even include links to things you think they'd like and some pictures.--admin

submitted by Clocks, age 2:30pm, Eastern Daylight Time
(June 27, 2022 - 1:30 pm)