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submitted by Anonymous, age x, x
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
That used to happen to me all the time. I would say something and then nobody would answer and I thought that nobody wanted to talk to me because I was the person who was different from everyone else. So I started to believe that nobody would be my friend and I would cry myself to sleep because I was lonely.
(June 30, 2022 - 2:38 pm)
Sometimes I can't tell whether people don't want to respond, or if they just aren't great at conversation, OR if I"m bad at conversation.
(June 30, 2022 - 4:07 pm)
Ah yes, I remember when I'd start talking, people would turn around, realize it's me who's talking, and turn back around :/
Wanderer says <muchx> much hugs? Thanks, Wanderer.
(June 30, 2022 - 6:33 pm)
I feel like I've changed a LOT in the past few months. Is it for the better?
Before, I was the sweet, shy kid. I didn't talk, I dressed younger, didn't cuss, no makeup, but SUPER insecure and kinda unhappy. And always scared. I didn't want to do anything I was bad at.
Now, I'm confident. I wear trendy clothes and cuss occasionally. I'm super extroverted and talk to everyone. I'm happy and do everything for the experience. But I'm also more flaky. I wear makeup and people think I'm fake or too young for makeup, but I don't wear much and it makes me feel more comfortable. I try everything I think I'm bad at and try to master it as best I can. But I'm also really sarcastic with my humor, while being optimistic.
I feel like a completely different person. But... is it a good different? I want to be a people-pleaser, not for validation, just so I can add a little touch of joy to someone's day. I don't know, though.
(June 30, 2022 - 8:58 pm)
I don't think that's a bad thing at all, as long as you're being true to yourself and not just other people. It's okay to change!
(July 1, 2022 - 8:36 am)
I don't know if I'm making a big mistake going un-anonymously, but...here we go.
So I'v been having a lot of emotional ACK lately, and I'm hoping somebody could help me. I'm a little worried I'm going crazy (though my dad tells me it's normal to feel this way), because I've...I've been wondering if anything is real, or if this entire world is all just a dream, or worse, a video game.
I don't want it to be. I'm scared; I'm scared that this life will be a dream and one day I'll wake up and I'll be somewhere else; I'll be someone else. Or I won't be anybody, just an avatar created by someone who's real. Is any of this real? Do I really exist? I'm actually wondering this and that scares me.
I can feel the wind. I can feel the rain. I can see the grass. But is it all something I've made up in my head? If our senses all transmit information to our brains to be processed, does that mean the entire world is just in my head? Is my family real, or are they just people created by my own mind?
What if it was all a dream? What if life is a dream? What if I live my whole life, and when it ends, I wake up...and I'm real, but it wasn't? Would that be okay? If I'd lived it all, would it be real?
Please help me. I'm so afraid that I'm imagining everything. That my intense love of writing is just made up. That everything is made up. The people I love. The places I call my home. The joys and pains.
I want it to be real.
And I'm so scared that it's not.
I hope some of you can help.
Love,
A Confused and Worried Shining Star
(July 1, 2022 - 6:41 pm)
Yep, don't worry, you're not crazy! Just about everyone thinks about this at least once in their lifetime, I bet. I gotta say, I can't prove that this life IS real. But I think of it like this: it's real to you. As far as you know, this is the world. And it's complex and beautiful. I don't really think a person could imagine it all up on their own! But even if you were and you woke up one day and all of it was gone, it would stick with you forever.
Sorry, this isn't as helpful as I usually strive to be. I hope it helped somehow, though.
(July 1, 2022 - 10:25 pm)
yes, i know, it's really scary i've felt like that before... but... a few things that have helped:
a) could i really make all this up?
b) think about the feeling you get when, like, you have a dream, but in the dream you think it's real, but then you wake up and you KNOW that moment is real.
c) physical touch, especially to people you love like your parents, helps a lot
d) trust that this will pass. almost everyone has felt that way at some point and almost everyone figures out it's not
and, i know this is what a non-real or automated thing would say but i can verify i am a real life human having real emotions at this real moment
(July 11, 2022 - 2:33 pm)
i miss my friends. i miss camp. i was only there for a week but i felt more like myself than pretty much ever, and now i'm home, and i'm glad to see my brother and parents and pets but i'm still really, really sad. yesterday it was so bad that as soon as i was alone at any time i would just start crying. and it's getting better but i still miss camp and my friends and i won't see most of them for a long time so what if they forget me? i bet my friends from the other time i went to the same camp wouldn't even recognize me, and this time most of them were already friends and we bonded a lot but they still can talk to each other but not me and i feel like i might just end up as an outsider again, like i was at the beginning of the week. i know i'll be distracted by things happening this summer, and seeing my friends from school will also be fun, but i don't think there's anything that can fully make up for not seeing my camp friends.
(July 2, 2022 - 2:31 pm)
i feel broken down. like that tree i saw the other day
(July 10, 2022 - 8:01 pm)
That sounds like a cool beginning of a poem or short-story, or even a song!
Wanna talk about it and get it off your chest? Sometimes bending painful emotions into a piece of art helps ease them, and ends up contributing to the world in a positive way. :)
(July 12, 2022 - 3:53 am)
Sometimes this thread just makes me want to cry. Fallen leaf, I always have that feeling when I go on a playdate, and then I have to go back home, I feel sad. But I have an older sister, and she is probably the best older sister I could wish for. When I'm with my sister, and I'm lonely, she is my very best friend, even though I call my other friends my best friends. But really, in my circle of friends, she is the one closest to me besides my parents. And when she's away, I really, really, miss her. So I kinda get the same feeling that you say you're getting. Cause if she's not in the house, I get so lonely, and my parents just aren't the same as my sister. She means a lot to me, and I'm getting off the confessions thread because I am actually crying right now, thinking about my sister, because she is not in the house right now.
(July 11, 2022 - 12:59 pm)
I feel really left out... not in person, but on the CB. And I don't know whether or not to say anything or not? I just feel really, really left out.
(July 13, 2022 - 2:31 pm)
I'm sorry you feel like that. I'm glad you're saying that on this thread, because I normally check it. I was wondering (and you don't have to if you don't want to, I don't mean to be harsh or anything), if you could tell me who you are, because then I can start not leaving you out. You can always create a post if you want to, and let the whole CB know that you're feeling this way, if you want, so that we'll all stop leaving you out. I really want to help you, but if you don't want to say who you are, you don't have to, it's ok. Again, I'm really sorry that you're feeling left out.
(July 13, 2022 - 3:42 pm)
Awww, thank you, Rora <3 I'm Red Starlight. I'm not feeling left out all throughout the CB, there are just certain threads where I do, but yeah, maybe I will post about it on those threads. I don't know yet, I'm really shy. Thank you so much for responding :)
(July 14, 2022 - 8:38 pm)