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Confess your deepest secrets here, anonymously, if you'd prefer

I won't judge

submitted by Anonymous, age x, x
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)

WHAT SKI LODGE?!!

I want more ski lodges plsss

I wanna seeeee 

submitted by Nightfall
(October 23, 2020 - 11:23 pm)

I want to seem perfect to everyone so I over think everything. After I posted something I thought that no one liked me and that I was cringy. At school I try to do everything but I always think that people hate me. I just can't shake that feeling. I know people like me but I feel like they don't. It's actually caused me to ruin friendships in the past. 

I never really liked how there were just "popular" CBers. I don't think I was ever one of them but they got the praise and they got the attention. Their threads had posts and wern't ignored. People payed attention to their CBveseries. 

I'm not sure why but I hate showing people I know my art, my singing, my dances, or even my school work. I can't do it. I think I'm bad and that I'm going to be humiliated. I've lost so much in life because I didn't want to tell people things.

I randomly become closed off. One minute I'm talking about everything and the next I'm super quiet and get defensive about everything. I don't know why. 

On one of my CBverseries no one posted on the thread. Only a few people did. It was a huge blow to my already falling sense of self confidence. I actually took a break because my life had some issues that I needed to adress. 

I'm not very active. My life overwhelmed me and  I couldn't take it anymore. I kind of dropped off the face of the earth. 

There is alot more I want to say but I don't think the admins will let me.  

submitted by Thoughts...
(October 23, 2020 - 9:01 pm)

Sometimes I feel so lonely. It's not because I don't have friends or don't like to socialize, it's because I feel like the things I enjoy are weird and obscure, even though they aren't. Take comics for example, I LOVE them, but I feel like if I nerd-out about them people will think I'm a very odd person. Like, why would I dedicate my time reading comics and learning about different superheroes when I could be studying science? Do people really think this? What do people think when I say I want to write for DC Comics one day? Do they think that's a dumb dream? What about my other hobbies, like art and writing, are they a waste of time too? I'm just not sure of my place in the world and it makes me really nervous.

submitted by Anonymous, age XXX, XXX
(October 23, 2020 - 9:18 pm)

I feel guilty. All over the world, people are dying--- starving, murdered because of the color of their skin, dying of COVID. People are being hurt because they look different or think different or act different or love different from someone's twisted idea of "perfect. "

A vision that I fit.
Every time I look in the mirror, I feel bad because I am me, a person with every advantage in the world, and I have never done a thing to be worthy of it. I don't know how to help. And I am so afraid that even if I did, I would be too selfish to do what is right. If I can't even help a kid being insulted at recess, how will I ever help anyone?
I am afraid that I am a bad person. I am afraid that I don't know how to feel love. I am afraid that I am only posting this to get attention. I am afraid.
submitted by Me
(October 23, 2020 - 11:16 pm)
*hugs* I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes I feel guilty that I had so so so many advantages in life.
One thing that can help is just... do a nice thing. It doesn't have to be hard. Help your parent/guardian make dinner. Help your sibling (if you have one) do their homework, if they're younger than you. And only if they want it. Etc.
Standing up for someone at school is hard. I know that because I've been in your situation before and I've only ever spoken up for the people I know and love already.
But doing random acts of kindness- for friends, for teachers, for parents, for siblings, for peers you don't even know that well- will make it easier for you to stand up for someone next time you have to.
It's hard to just put yourself out there and tell someone to stop whatever horrid thing they're doing. It's easy to say, "Not my problem," because you're scared that you'll be the one being bullied next. Believe me. I've been there. I've done it.
And I'm not excusing my actions- I should not have just stood there. I should have said something.
But that's the beautiful thing about life. You'll probably have another chance to do the right thing. And the beautiful thing about mistakes- you'll learn from that experience and eventually you'll find that courage and not just stand there.
Another thing is that you don't have control over the fact that you have priveleges others don't. Once I spent a whole vacation feeling guilty about this and I didn't enjoy the whole first week because I had a stomachache from feeling guilty and stressed about it.
I have less advice on this one because I actually have the same issue. How do I help the people who don't have the same priveleges/advantages in life that I do? I don't know. Hopefully someone else can help.
-Lumi 
(Also, PS. This comment might be formatted weird, my enter button was acting strange.) 
submitted by Luminescence, age 12, Atlantis
(October 24, 2020 - 10:11 am)

I love you all. Each of you is worthy and beautiful. Each of you matters, and each of you are perfect just the way you are.

submitted by <3
(October 23, 2020 - 11:19 pm)

I need to vent:

This week I invited my friend to go to a fundraiser haunted house and to hang out on halloween. She said her mom wouldn't let her because of covid but she posts that she went to the same place just with a different friend. They don't even go to our school! I feel like I'm just a last resort or people just throw me away. The thing is the haunted house looked like fun and no one else could go. 

I am constantly thrown aside and ignored. I feel like i'm trying so hard to be who they want me to be but they still don't care. I'm never good enough. I want to find my people. my group. where I can just be myself and we just talk or hang out. People always think I'm fine but I'm not and I can't tell anyone. This was part of the reason I got on this site in the first place. I could be myself and everyone accepted me. 

I wish we could all meet in real life. 

submitted by Thoughts...
(October 30, 2020 - 9:19 pm)

<333 I feel the same way a lot. But I gotta believe that everyone will find their people eventually, so I hope you find yours soon!

submitted by Azalea, age 13, Earth
(October 31, 2020 - 11:50 am)

I feel the same way. 

Everyone seems to hate me, to dictate my life. I'm also a last resort, they use me as a robot. The only reason anyone ever asks me anything is to do random stuff. I'm serious. Yes, me too. I wish we all could meet. 

I invited a lot of people to an escape room zoom meet, and NO-ONE said yes. Nobody. I waited for an hour and still no-one showed up. My friends, or should I say rivals, said that they were too busy. How could they? Like, I mean, they were the ones who actually set up the time! And then I saw it. The dreaded history. 

Someone invited me back to a hangout. While I was waiting, apparently, they were chatting on hangouts. They said.

"Let's just not go to that *this was a swear word* zoom meet that *my real name* made up. Like, it isn't even original! Let's meet in my zoom instead."

Then she gave the link. And everyone agreed. 

I'm torn away. Their excuse is that I'm too bossy. It's their problem! I'm serious! I was the one following them, the popular group. The thing is, I used to be the most popular until that girl came over and started spreading rumors about me! Like, "*my real name* tells everyone to do this and that!" and stuff like that. I don't like it. It's not me. Ugh. *groaning* This turned iinto a rant. 

Anyways. Thoughts..., you're not alone. I'm ignored too. 

Find your 'group'. It doesn't matter if you're not popular. It doesn't matter. I'm serious.  

submitted by Nightfall
(October 31, 2020 - 12:38 pm)

Aww, Night, that's awful. *hugs* I don't have anything super amazing to say, just I'm glad you're here and I'm so sorry that happened. We're always here. <3

submitted by Starchaser, age 12, Pyrrhia, (she/her)
(October 31, 2020 - 6:47 pm)

Thanks, Starchaser.

Ok I need to rant more. I'm sorry my life is full of misery at the moment. 

Arghhhhhhhh

I had a debate today, everyone already knew, but all they did was say, "Oh, good job, good for you. You probably won't win. Buh-bye." 

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH it frustrates me so much because its 6-8th grade Public Forum, intensley hard, and IM ONLY IN 5TH GRADE PLUS I JUST LEARNT PUBLIC FORUM A WEEK AGO!

whew, all out of fire. 

But reallly i need more people in my liife *sadly screaming* 

submitted by Nightfall
(November 1, 2020 - 2:51 pm)

This, uh....

This makes me really want to curse. GO JUMP OF A MICROWAVE YOU SNOLLYGOSTER

submitted by Clovertoe, age 24 Moons, WindClan
(November 1, 2020 - 6:08 pm)

I have two profiles on the cb.

submitted by shhh...secrets
(October 31, 2020 - 12:58 pm)

That's okay. I'm not mad.

submitted by Moondrop
(November 3, 2020 - 1:26 pm)

I have another confession: I don't think I'm pretty enough to have any boys my age that like me.

My hairs ALWAYS a mess, my teeth aren't straight and I have to brush them EVERY DAY, my face looks like a pizza and that makes me feel bad, and I wish my eyes were ice blue.

Yes, I always feel bad about myself. Especially when I was at a different online school two years ago, when somebody LITERALLY hacked into my account on something, AND CALLED ME A SWEAR WORD!!!!!! Don't bullies know that EVERYONE has feelings, esepically the people that are getting bullied?

submitted by Emekittycon Kitten, age 12, Kitten Kingdom
(November 1, 2020 - 2:24 pm)