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I won't judge

submitted by Anonymous, age x, x
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)

That sounds really hard, Silver, I'm sorry. This poem/rant/regurgitation is so beautiful though, I wish I could express myself like that. It's true, they say being a teenager is "supposed" to be difficult but that doesn't make it better. 

When you say "i wear the clothes i think people will like and i smile and stay quiet and when i don’t i almost always regret it," I can totally relate. Lately I've noticed that I often hide my own feelings in order to make those around me more comfortable (possibly because girls are programmed to do that by the patriarchy but that's a whole other rant), but sometimes it gets really frustrating to always hide like that. I don't really have any advice but just know that we get it and you are always welcome to rant <3 love you Silver Crystal! 

submitted by Lupine
(January 25, 2023 - 10:46 pm)

Aww thank you Lupine! Love you too <33 (also yes the patriarchy is one of the many things that didn't make it into this specific rant but I rant about it quite a lot lol)

submitted by Silver Crystal, age Infinity, Milky Way
(January 27, 2023 - 7:17 am)

I just want to do better and it's not working and I can't seem to do anything right and no one notices how close to a breakdown I am, and I wish a had a friend that lived nearby that I could talk to almost every day but I don't, and I wish I was better but I'm not and I hate that. I want to change but it's really hard and I'm not sure I have the discipline to make myself change. Every time my parents get mad at me they just remind me of all the things I hate about myself that probably won't change anytime soon. I just wish I was different and I don't think I'm going to change anytime soon.

I wear a mask with a smile for hours at a time

Stare at the ceiling while I hold back what's on my mind

And when they ask me how I'm doing, I say I'm just fine

(And when they ask me how I'm doing, I say I'm just fine)

But the fact is, I can never get off of my mattress

And all that they can ask is, Why are you so sad kid

(lyrics from an actual song) 

 Change comes slowly to many, many people! We like you the way you are right now, even if you're frustrated. --admin

submitted by Frustrated and tired
(January 24, 2023 - 11:15 am)

this might be the post i relate to most on the cb after darkside's post from awhile ago.  i just wish that i could learn to be a better person and just better in general because i'm just not good enough.  and all the motivationally stuff i see all the time on like the internet or random posters tells me i'm "good enough just the way i am" but i know that's not true, and i know i need to do better somehow.  other than that though, i don't know anything.  sometimes it feels like i'm going crazy.  i wish i could trust and really know anything at all.  like how to change.

submitted by Tsuki the Skywolf
(January 25, 2023 - 9:02 am)

@Tsuki and Frusrated and tired, I just wanted to say that I hope things get better for you, and you are great people just the way you are. It's normal to have things about yourself that you don't like; it's happened to me as well. But as I've gotten older, I've accepted that even though I do have traits I don't like so much, it doesn't mean that I have to dislike myself. The same goes for you!

First of all, the things we don't like about ourselves aren't always bad! For instance, my friend tends to lose her temper and challenge others who she thinks are being difficult to her. That's sometimes not the right response, because sometimes she doesn't realize that someone actually isn't being difficult to her. But I've seen how it can also be useful for her, because she's pretty able to stand up for herself when she is being picked on.

It's also normal to find it difficult to change! Trying to work on it, and doing the best you can, is all you really need to do. Fundamentally, it is true that you're wonderful just the way you are. Don't hate yourself because there are some things about yourself that you don't like. You deserve to be loved, no matter what.

It can really help to take a break and spend time doing something you love, with people you love - it can give you a fresh perspective and give you a rest, which is sometimes all one needs. Doing something for somebody else can really boost your self-esteem too! Writing to a lonely grandparent, or making a dessert for your family, or befriending a new kid at school - anything that makes someone else happy. Looking at another person and thinking "That person is happy today because of me" is a huge help!

@Frustrated and tired, I really sympathize about wanting a friend... I've wished that so often. I hope it happens someday soon, and in the meantime, all of us on the CB are here for you.

Anyway, I hope this helped! :)

submitted by Poinsettia, age immortal, Narnia
(January 25, 2023 - 5:49 pm)

Totally not me trying to take my own advice... :/

submitted by Poinsettia, age immortal, Narnia
(February 8, 2023 - 10:51 am)

Hi!

I'm also like this too! I've been waiting for someone like you to speak their mind and I'm really glad you did. Sometimes I do something wrong and then my parents get mad at me, and then I get mad at them and I burst into tears because I hate those traits I carry around with me.

Then sometimes I have these nights when I cry myself to sleep because I think about how much I hate myself sometimes and I pray but no one seems to hear my prayers.

So I get you :) 

submitted by Rora@Frustrated&tire
(January 26, 2023 - 9:12 pm)

ahhhh, i know, i pray all the time.  i am & was raised agnostic so i'm not of any particular religion but i just really hope there's someone out there 

submitted by Tsuki the Skywolf
(January 27, 2023 - 5:08 pm)

Oh, Rora *sends hugs* I really wish I could help you with this. From what I've seen, you're a really funny, sparkly, friendly person. It's normal to do things wrong sometimes, but it doesn't mean that you're a bad person or that you should hate anything about yourself. I can offer you the same advice I gave to Tsuki and frustrated and tired (it's at the top of this page, in case you want to read it). I hope it works for you!

submitted by Poinsettia@Rora
(January 28, 2023 - 12:11 pm)

Hi,

Thanks so much for the advice. I was talking with my mom about it and...

We're both hot-heads. She said she's really sorry for making me feel terrible about myself and she's going to try to change. 

submitted by Rora@Poinsettia
(January 28, 2023 - 2:04 pm)

*cheers* Yay! I'm glad you could work it out! :)

submitted by Poinsettia@Rora, age immortal, Narnia
(January 28, 2023 - 8:06 pm)

How can I be so lonely even when I'm surrounded by people?

submitted by Sterling, age they/them, lost in a fantasy world
(January 27, 2023 - 8:05 pm)

Let's be lonely together! <3

submitted by Hex
(January 28, 2023 - 1:03 pm)

Not me blurting out some incredibly out of pocket intrusive thought to my crush in the hallway instead of wAlKiNG bY like a normal person

not me thinking about it 3 days later

w h y a m i l i k e t h i s

submitted by Not telling :), But u can probably guess
(January 29, 2023 - 7:00 pm)

Not me finding this relatable ;)

submitted by This is me, age WO-O-O-AH, WoAhHaHAHHHOHHHH
(January 30, 2023 - 12:30 am)