Chatterbox: Pudding's Place

Broken Heart

First I didn't
know what it was.

I thought he was
just another boy...

But I was
wrong.
I'd known him since fifth grade,

And yet he didn't
catch my eye,

Until much later.

I first saw it in
his smile,

The one that lit
up his eyes

And made him seem
a little crazy.

The one that he
used to give me

When we shared a
joke,

Or a secret.

Then he began to
talk to me,

Not much at first,

Just a little.

And I thought I
was crazy,

Just to listen.

I hung onto every
word he said,

Thinking that the
next day he'd be gone.

But he didn't
leave...

We became close.

Too close.

We would take
walks,

Together,

On cool Autumn
days,

And he would tell
me

About the trees

And the plants
that we passed.

Then one day,

He told me that he

Was experiencing a
new feeling...

One that he
couldn't place.

I hoped.

But I hoped too
much.

He tried to
explain...

And that evening,

While I was alone,

I realized that he
was putting my feelings

Into words.

And I believed...

I believed.

And I took the
pain that came after that,

For stupidly
loving a boy,

Who didn't love
me.

The next day,

I went to find
him,

Where we always
met...

But he wasn't
there.

I was
disappointed.

I thought that I
couldn't have been

More
disappointed...

But I was wrong.

And I paid for it.

I started to turn
away...

And I saw him.

I started to call
out...

but then I saw
her.

She was beautiful.

Far more beautiful
than I.

And I could see
the way he held her close,

That he could see
that.

At first I didn't
believe it.

I couldn't.

I wouldn't.

But then he kissed
her...

And my world fell
to pieces.

My heart broke
there and then...

And I felt pain,

Much stronger than
I had ever before.

I felt anger
too...

But then I saw
your face.

You were smiling

And your smile was
far more bright

Than the smile you
gave me

That used to light
up your eyes...

This smile lit up
your whole face...

Your whole soul.

And it made my
cry,

To see it pointed
at another girl.