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Hi.

I don't know

How to explain

Without saying

Sorry.

Sorry I'm silent too often.

Sorry I never talk to anyone.

Sorry I don't write on my own Role-Plays.

If you want

An explanation

I

Don't

Have

One

And

I'm sorry for that too.

But 

I don't know how

To explain it

Without saying I'm weak

Because I'm not weak

I've spent too long convincing myself I'm not

To start doubting it now

So

Here it is

I can't communicate

"Don't worry about me"

"I'm fine"

"I don't need help"

"Just stop talking to me"

I just

.

.

.

I can't explain

I don't want to leave

I love everyone too much

But I feel like

I have pressure to communicate

Remember communication?

That thing I can't do?

Yeah,

I have to do that.

But I can't

I don't know how

It's the kind of thing

That can only be explained by art

I don't have the talent to create

And I wish I could just

Express

How I feel

Because

I

Don't 

Know

How.

I can't,

I'm sorry

I'm a ghost

You can't get noticed if you don't do anything

But I don't do anything

Why am I expected to be noticed

Because I'm important?

But I never feel that way

I'm just a person

In a world

Full of people

And I don't understand

Why I can't tell my feelings

Maybe it's because I'm scared?

Scared that everything I say

Might set off an unknown alarm

Am I confused?

Confused about whether this is normal

Or if something is actually wrong

Could I be angry?

Angry that I'll finally be needing help

After all this time of not needing anyone

Someone please help me

I don't know what to do

Make me express my feelings

Find me the words

That can accurately describe

My feelings

Because I don't even understand them. 

submitted by Lucy B., age 14!!!!!!!, Emmilvien
(June 20, 2018 - 4:54 pm)

back to the Pudding's Place

I wish that I could help

But in the end

I have to admit

that I feel very similarly.

I may be able to communicate

But I feel unnoticed too

I'm sure lots of people do.

But we're still here

And if you ever need us

we're here. 

submitted by Pooki P
(June 20, 2018 - 7:32 pm)

I stand here

At a crossroads.

Uncertain

If I do this,

Will it be true to me?

What exactly is

"True to me?"

Who am I?

Whatever that is,

What stops it from dissappearing?

I don't know.

I don't know

I

Don't

Know.

I don't know what I want.

How can I,

When I don't know what

I am?

What if I decided

To be someone else?

Would something stop me?

Or would I completely change

My entire being

Without blinking an eye?

I don't know what to think.

I don't know what to feel.

I don't know what to do.

I wonder if I just

Imitate everything my friends do.

Then am I myself, or just

An empty shell,

Filled with other people?

But what are we

Except the people we meet?

My mind flickers to a quote:

"The people you love will change you

The things you have learned will guide you"

But it's followed by

"But nothing on Earth can silence

That quiet voice still inside you"

It says that that quiet voice

Is who you are

But what if

I don't know what that voice is saying?

What if I don't understand my own heart?

What if I don't understand anything?

What if I don't know?

But then I turn (once again)

To look at the other road.

The one that diverges from mine

And the thousands of others beside it.

And I see something new. 

Someone new.

I see them satring out with me,

Just as confused,

Maybe more.

And suddenly,

I know what to do.

I reach out

And grab their hand.

And.

Don't.

Let.

Go.

 

Ever.

~~~~~~~

Hopefully that helped. It started out to comfort you, but it was kind of theraputic for me. It definitely helped me a bit. I am in the same boat sometimes. I feel like I don't know, or understand anything. At all. I think the point is, like a lot of my poems, that you aren't alone. That there are a thousand other people with us in this boat. And that we are stronger together. I'm here to support you. We all are. Don't ever forget that. 

submitted by Shy Peacock, Tree of Life
(June 20, 2018 - 7:33 pm)

Wow. I... I really don't know what to say. Exept that y'all are extremely poetic and you sound somewhat depressed. Oh, and I'll say top. So someone who knows how to help you can help you. (...top.)

 

submitted by ~, age Someonewho, wantstogetyouhelp
(June 25, 2018 - 1:09 pm)