Random Thoughts/Things?

If y'all don't know, I believe I may have some mild depression, but I haven't said anythin' to anyone 'cause the last thing I need is for my parents to find out and then they might overreact and do who knows what, but all I know is that the song "Mask" by Dream is how I feel most days, especially when my mom gets after me for not doin' somethin' "the right way". Well, ex-CUSE me, but if you wanted it done corectly, well you should've done it yourself.

Also I have, like, several crushes at the same time, some new, and some old, help me and yes some of them are my mind-friends (they actually exist but have no idea I'm alive so I pretend that I'm in the same room as them and I have conversations with them).

Also I only got, like, not even 6 hours of sleep this mornin' 'cause I wasn't able to go to sleep until after 12:00 AM and I woke up at 6:30.

And did I mention that my bf A said he was gonna be able to go to the Youth Group costume party on Sunday but then somethin' came up and he wasn't able to go? Haven't seen the guy since literally SEPTEMBER.

I am slowly going crazy from my lack of sleep 😀

*pauses* although, I suppose I was already crazy before starting high school.

I'm going crazier I guess

Anyone else know of Welcome Home?

For anyone who's reading this: get some sleep. Its good for you. <3

mood 😀

Real

How has everyone's life been? I check in here every day, but I feel like it's been forever since I last posted.

High school is SO much better than middle school although there is a lot of work to do. Geometry and bio are very hard. History is boring and the teacher is awful. English, concert choir, and graphic design are great! I love the teachers.

I got into a local choir and my choir teacher thinks I should audition for a regional choir – which is even bigger and more selective! I am also learning to sight read, among other skills. I am very excited about the whole thing. 

We are doing great on the cross country team! The season is almost over. I have gotten over three minutes faster throughout the season!

I wrote an article for the school paper, and the teacher who runs it was super impressed with what I wrote! 

Lastly, I am in my school play. The performance is next month and I am very excited! 

Overall I have been very busy but everything has been good. I miss you all and I am sorry for my inactivity. 

Hi, Peri!! Also, my gosh, same! I check the CB every day but never seem to post 🙁

Also agreed, high school > middle school, and though I had geometry last year, math is hard but also very annoying 'cause I learned all this in 7th grade??? and the class I'm in is learning it for the first time?? 

I would love to be in choir, 'cause also pretty much all the actors are, so they all know how to sight read, but I don't have time in my schedule :(((

also WOAH three minutes faster??? that's a lot :O

also oooo plays!! I'm also in my show and the show nights in are a little bit less than a month and aaaaa 

also saturday is homecoming and I kinda wanna ask the girl I like if she wants to go with me (platonically, probably) but it's scary 

also vengeance saga (2nd to last epic saga) tmrw night!!! aaaaaa (Imma be Odysseus for halloween 😀 and it's likely I'll be going w/friends :DDD)

also yesterday was my crush's bday so I drew her as a knight (and colored and shaded it and it looks rly good ngl) (also cause she's a knight in our musical) and she said she rly rly likes it and so does her family and now it's on their fridge??? and also i've just been perpetually filled with gay panic. like on design run on friday, there was this one time in the wings and aaaaaaa (I might explain later. I wanna but yk?) and also this week is spirit week leading up to hoco and today is "twin day" and my crush asked me if i wanted to twin w/her so we did and aaaa-

oh and I've discovered a bunch of new music 😀 

and I'm known (mainly in players but also outside it too) as the cool makeup girl w/cool outfits (and some ppl know I'm always dressing up as some character) (I've gotten so many compliments from other ppl in players on my outfits. I love it sm)

oh and a couple weeks ago I went to a book talk for a short story anthology abt queer beasties and 3 of the authors were there and I told my friend from camp abt it so I saw her there and it was the best and also my book is now signed :O not only did all three sign the inside cover, but also the first page of their own story w/a more specialized message and aaaaaaaaa :OOO (one of the stories is abt asexual sirens and one of them i think is demi ace! aaaa)

oh and for bio we have to do a project on cells so I'm writing a short story and it just happens to relate to the cells (cause that's one of the options for the project) but my storyline I basically just took from the odyssey w/some alterations so uh 

oh speaking of bio I have a test tmrw and it's getting late okay gn yall miss you sorry and also dw I'm not dead but yeah (also sorry for grammar mistakes, I'm super tired and overwhelmed still kinda idk)  

I shouldn't even be on here rn I have to study for my test (YES, MATH :/ it's fun to learn though!) but wanted to say hii missed you both good to read you and that's (mostly; sorry about geometry, bio, and history @Peri) great!!!!!!! But also definitely don't overwork yourselves <33 (and also @Rainbow I'd say definitely go ask her if you want!!! You got this!!!! :DD)

thats all i want right now