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Wow. Just wow. I discovered something about my old self that puts me wondering.
So, anyone remember a girl named PandaGirl some years ago? Let's say... you know, since July 2010? Well, I just discovered a crazy weird post. 2 in fact, that show who that was.
It was me.
I'm stunned. I was myself yet someone else... at the same time. I went by PandaGirl and Ashlee G. Two different personalities. One hyper, happy, friendly, did HypQuests (I LOVED those). The other... boring, quiet, simple, did NOT do HypQuests. Both were me. I.... I'm confused. That was after reading the first thread. This one:
http://www.cricketmagkids.com/chatterbox/inkwell/node/121596
Then I found the second thread under my name PandaGirl. I recognized it right away. My HypeQuest. This one:
http://www.cricketmagkids.com/chatterbox/inkwell/node/120319
Then I wondered... why? Why did I make two people? Why did they each have different personalities? SINCE WHEN WAS I A SENIOR CBER? Sorry for the caps. Umm...please? Anyone remember me from before? Under either of those names?
I need help.
submitted by Ashlee G., age 15, The Future
(July 26, 2016 - 2:46 pm)
(July 26, 2016 - 2:46 pm)
Nope! Sorry. I'm not that senior. But you always sounded familiar to me ...
(July 26, 2016 - 4:22 pm)
Hmm... Maybe we knew each other in that long ago time. That would be very strange...
(July 26, 2016 - 4:43 pm)
LOL, like I said, I'm not that senior. I've just read little tidbits from that time period.
(July 27, 2016 - 9:53 am)
Neither name is familiar to me... I may have done something similar myself (not going to go looking now). :P
I dunno... sometimes you want to make life more interesting, sometimes a joke needs two people and you can't trust someone else to use your setup right :D Sometimes you're just a kid, and you think it's perfectly normal, by whatever reasoning, and sometimes you want to try on different - whatd'yecallem - alter egos to see what fits you.
Speaking for myself, I almost never know what I was thinking when I did [something]...
Pleased to meet you, Ashlee :)
(July 26, 2016 - 4:51 pm)
Thinking about it further, I think it is pretty understandable - especially as writers, we learn to take on other personas (including those wildly different from our own). The characters I've created all have some aspect or another of my personality (then augmented with fragments of other people I know and some "true" fiction) since that's what's easiest for me to understand. In some sense, writing the interactions of my characters is exactly like playing two different sides of myself. Even though I like to think of them as autonomous and want them to appear that way, it's still me that created them and is pulling their strings.
Conversing online and writing fiction may seem distinct, but when done well, they have in common the very combination of self-discovery and empathy by which we mature, so... :)
(July 26, 2016 - 10:03 pm)
Very true, writing and online chat is very similar in ways.
(July 27, 2016 - 10:46 am)
And I forgot to add, as for the character writings, I do the same. I find it extremely hard to visualize what someone else could be feeling in a certain situation, so I base it off myself or people I know very well. Not 100%, but to the sense that I can feel my personality in that character.
(July 27, 2016 - 10:50 am)
Yes, pleased to meet you as well, Oregano! I don't believe I ever fully introduced myself. And thank you! I was very confused about what on earth I was doing then. I guess, looking back, I would have been 13... I believe. Or was it 12? Either way, I've always been a weird kid. So maybe that was just my alter ego showing out. Or, as you also said, a joke. It makes sense to have a joke for two people be ran by the same person... Why didn't I think of that before?
Anyways, thank you for the help!
(July 27, 2016 - 10:45 am)
l never was around to meet your other self, but l do understand that feeling. l read through some of my older posts, thinking, Who the heck is the idiot and why were they once me?
(July 26, 2016 - 7:20 pm)
I'm sure we've all done that... at this point, the best I can hope for is that current-me is creating some more great object lessons for future-me (I'm sure she is, heh). X)
(July 26, 2016 - 10:23 pm)
Yes, as Oregano said, we've all probably done that before. It's like going back and reading my notebook full of poems and writing. Wow... I was 1. More creative. And 2. Almost too creative. I found rediscovering my old CB self quite shocking, for I'd never be that way now.
(July 27, 2016 - 10:48 am)