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Guys, I have a lot to say sorry for. Suddenly disappearing for a month. Dragging Zeon out of his own wedding for nearly a month. Not posting. Not visiting you guys. Leaving no updates or notices. Nothing. I just left off of the face of the earth... err... CB, I mean. Now I feel terrible about it. You all deserve to know the why, no matter how pathetic it may sound:
I lost motivation on CB, and took on that I was too busy. Which I was, I was and still am swamped, but it was also because I just didn't feel like CB was part of me much anymore. Like I lost some connections. I am NOT saying that I grew up for the CB, never will that happen. It is just that sometimes I come to the point where it just doesn't work for me. Adding that to the fact that I got accepted as a National Youth Correspondent for WJMC, balancing school and Yearbook, after school activities, and daily life.
It came to thought multiple times that I can just come back as usual. But I never did, and why? Even when I found time, I couldn't bring it to myself to go to this website anymore, because I am far too gone, left you guys for too long to correct my mistakes.
How can I put this? I have no excuses for what I did, both for the AEs and for myself and other CBers. It was despicable and almost selfish and I am sorry. I am truly sorry. I had to come on to bring this news, maybe correct a few mistakes where possible. But I don't think I will still be on, it just cannot happen easily.
*Takes a deep breath*
I just let out a lot there, sorry for having made you listen to this. And I hope you can forgive me for this all. Thank you!
submitted by Ashlee G., age 15, The Future
(October 22, 2016 - 9:27 pm)
(October 22, 2016 - 9:27 pm)
Don't worry, Ashlee! I was never mad at you in the first place (and I'm still not).
(October 23, 2016 - 8:54 am)
Thank you! I have been gone so long, though, that I don't know if I recognize your name... did you switch it? And also, it means a lot to hear this. I am just really frustrated and mad at myself right now.
(October 23, 2016 - 1:19 pm)
It's totally fine! I was never mad at you, and I forgive you anyways.
(October 23, 2016 - 11:10 am)
Thanks!
(October 25, 2016 - 8:46 pm)
Hey. It's okay. I understand. There's times when I just don't want to come here, although they are rare. *hugs* We forgive you.
(October 23, 2016 - 12:29 pm)
Thanks, Cho! *Hugs back* I hope I am on more than I am off...
(October 25, 2016 - 9:21 pm)
Of course I'm not mad, Ashlee. I would never be mad at you. I love you so much, and you are like a big sister to everyone, even me, although we're the same age. I feel like I can turn to you for advice about anything, and that you'll always be ready with smile and a hug. But there is always a time when it comes to move on, and if that time is now, so be it.
But you are not despicable or selfish. You are an inspiring and giving person. I truly try to be like you. I have missed you and will go on missing you, but I respect your decision. It is yours to make. Thank you for telling us, so that we won't have to wonder forever what happened to you. Please try to pop in from time to time, if you can! Love you.
(October 23, 2016 - 12:35 pm)
Thank you so much, Cockleburr! See, I was really mad at myself for the whole thing. I have a hard time of letting go of certain things, or people, and so discovering that I left you guys without explanation, with the intention of leaving longer, just kind of made myself angry. What you say means a lot though, you are the best! Thank you again.
(October 25, 2016 - 9:29 pm)
*gasps* Oh, Ashlee! Arwen's heartbroken...she thought Zeon wasn't coming back. Ummm....
(October 23, 2016 - 12:53 pm)
I... Ummm... About that. Yeah, sorry. Zeon's been hating me for the past month, refusing to talk. And Quill, well, her depressed side has been showing because of MewFour. Yet, that part I cannot fix. So my leaving did neither of them any good. I hope they figure out something for the wedding,though! Zeon's been crying himself to sleep with his "Arwen Collection" wrapped in his arms.
(October 25, 2016 - 9:31 pm)
I was curious where you went, but I'm not angry, Ash! I feel you with being swamped; I vanished for a bit for the same reason.
On a completely unrelated note, there's a girl in my class whose name is Ashley G. I thought you might find that interesting. (I went out of my way to find out how her name was spelled, obviously)
(October 23, 2016 - 1:36 pm)
Thanks, St.! And going along with that "unrelated note", that is very interesting! Although sadly... unless you live in or near a town of four hundred, and a class of what? 10? You won't know me. I really wish us CBers could have like a giant meet up or something one of these days.
(October 25, 2016 - 8:14 pm)
Welcome back! I can't imagine why you would think that any of us would be mad at you.
(October 25, 2016 - 9:46 pm)
Thank you, Scylla! I am glad to be back for a bit.
(October 28, 2016 - 8:08 pm)
Oh, Ashlee. It's not despicable or selfish, and please don't think even for a minute that I'm mad at you. I sure noticed and missed you terribly, but I understand.
If you lose motivation and wish to leave, you should leave, as much as it pains me to say that. It's your life and you should use your time anyway you want. Getting a good education is important right now.
I'm so proud that you got into WJMC! Congratulations!
But back to my above rant.
I can understand losing motivation. The CB demands a lot of time, at least for me, and I feel disconnected from it if I don't spend several hours checking threads and commenting. I know that's silly, but still. And with your time, I more than understand.
In fact, I actually need to go check my solo writes... wish you could have joined them... but I'm completely procrastinating on them. If I actually force myself to sit down and write, i can jot out a hundred words pretty easily... I just have to get around to it. But, anyway, enough about me. I'm wasting your time, I better go start my homework.
Signing off with best wishes to you,
Daisy
(October 26, 2016 - 6:36 am)