Do you want to tell us what happened?

Ditto, S.E., ditto.

Anyway, it happens to all of us. But you're not stupid. You're a human.

SE:

Never call yourself stupid.

Because, and I know you don't want to hear the truth right now, but: You are not stupid. No, not at all. You want some proof? Well, the fact that you can acknowledge that somethihng you did (or didn't do) was wrong or embarrassing shows that you have empathy and intelligence. Are those qualities of a stupid person? I don't think so.

As you probably don't know, I have a huge problem with perfectionism. I used to carry the burden of being wrong with me so willingly that....well, things happened that I'm not going to share on an online site. You must always remember that the reason we, as humans, make mistakes is so that we can learn from them. Some of the most brilliant people in the world are also brilliantly flawed with forgetfulness or mood swings or some other negative quality, and that's OK! Because the things that make a person interesting are their balance of talents and shortcomings. A perfect person would be boring. And you, you beautiful person, you, have flaws because, I repeat, you are beautiful. 

You need a gigantic hug right now, and I would like to offer you one, virtually. i wish I could be there in person to help you. 

As I drain my tea mug (decaf chai with soymilk, by the way), I also am drained of arguments. But I think I have done my job. 

Hello, smart, brilliant person. I do this too, on a lower level with everyday mistakes, like staring off into space and someone thinking I'm staring at them, or singing and someone thinking I'm talking to myself, or losing my homework and having to ask a classmate for their's after school. And I keep telling myself that it doesn't matter, and just be myself--but it's hard, and you don't just one day magically believe that you can do anything you set your mind to. (At one point I thought I had minor anxiety issues, but I have since realized that I'm not a psychologist and it's probably just teenage 'findng yourself' stuff.)

So this is the horribly corny thing that I'm going to do. Whenever I think of something embarrassing I did or something I wish I could change, I think of something good that I did, or something good that happened.

Also remember that we all love you here and you can vent if you need to!!!

Oh my gosh, you were SO close having an exclamation mark free post. Why the positivity? You were doing SO well!

Shush, AE! Also, sorry if this is not at all what your'e talking about. I didn't mean to clog up this thread with my mess.

I am with you SE. I regret so. So many things.

I regret my life ever since I made one. Single mistake. It just escalated from there. And now every night I hate myself. Every time I am tired and depressed I hate myself more and a lot of times I downgrade myself a bunch.

Because I hate the mistakes I have been making for four years. I have been doing it so long the guilt had dissapeared for a time, and even now it temporarily ssapears. But when I feel the guilt I hate it. I want to change everything. I want to change the mistake that messed up !my life. 

From what it sounds like, it isn't something you did, but rather something you didn't do.

And this is what we tell ourselves. That we are stupid. Well....we are. We were stupid for making mistakes. We are all very, very stupid imperfect things. But we are all human. And to be a human means to make mistakes. To have stupid moments and !make stupid decisions. But that doesn't mean we can't be strong and pick ourselves up because next time we won't make the same mistake.

I know with one of !my problems I never will.

But the one that has messed with my mind for four years? I've given up on that.

Just keep hitting yourself in the face when you make a mistake, and learn not to follow in your footsteps. We can't change the past, but we can change how the past affects the future.  

I still love and respect you as a person no matter what you have or haven't done.