Then change! I’m sure we’ll listen to and like your ideas. The poems you posted on my thread were amazing! All your poems are! 

If you want an honest opinion, well... You can be hesitant, so worried about perceptions that you don't speak at all, and when you do you're so incredibly nice that a paranoid skeptic might wonder if you're faking it. I think your sweetness can be a shield, but that you do genuinely think well of others. Except for when you think that they might see you negatively or be less than kind towards you, although I imagine that's born from the worry that there might be something unpleasant in you rather than the idea that we might not see straight, which is frankly somewhat charming. You fault yourself. You want community or camaraderie, but not too much attention. You want to do well. You're scared of offending, displeasing, or messing up. But when you speak freely, you're interesting and funny, intelligent, open, clever, deep and nice. You don't want your shadows to be who you are. And they're not. At least not entirely. 

If you want to know and be able to explain who you are, one way is to enter ski lodges. Assess yourself. Strive for a description that truly captures the way you act. When people write you realistically, you've done well. I might be biased, though, because I really adore ski lodges. I don't know. Do you think this would work? 

Okay now, two more things. 

1. If you ever really want to say something, say it. Chances are it's worth hearing. And it's very easy once you get used to it. I am talking your ear off right now and I'm not saying nearly everything that crosses my mind. Sorry about that, by the way.

2. Always ask questions. Everyone you will ever meet will know something you don't. Questions open the way to knowledge. For example: What is separating you from your mask? Did your mask come from you, or was it always someone else? Why do you keep it? What is it hiding? What do you you want to say that you're not saying, and why are you holding back? Is it a good reason? What would happen if you said it, and what if you didn't? What if an AE said it for you? Is that a normal thing for AEs to do? What if you asked? What if it isn't but you did it anyway? Was that bad grammar? Would anyone care? What are a few other ways to say that? Where was I again?

I forgot where I was going with this, but anyway I missed you, is your vacation over yet? Do you think I see you clearly? Is this too much? I know I can get a little intense sometimes and I'm not very good at figuring out when people are uncomfortable and why but I'm sorry. Hugs make things better, right?