My cat died

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My cat died

My cat died today.

The last time I saw her... I think it was last night. It must have been last night, right? We had macaroni and cheese. She was underneath the couch and I couldn't get her to come out, so I slid her plate underneath and walked away, muttering about how silly she was.

My twin brother said that this morning, her breathing sounded... not right.

My mom said that she couldn't move her back legs and had to drag herself around by her front paws.

My dad said he'd take her to the vet at 11:45 and she might not come back.

I thought of telling my older brother, who's away at college, but I didn't want to worry. And I suppose I also didn't want to worry him. 

I'm still waiting for her to come back.

That's what really gets to me. I know she's not alive anymore but I'm still waiting for her to come back. In a box, her ashes, I don't know. I don't know what they did with her. It feels less real, for her to have just gone and never returned. I want to have her back. To put her somewhere myself.

Show your readers a body, or they won't believe the character is dead... 

I wasn't sure what to do tonight, feeding them... her. My remaining cat. My twin was feeding the neighbors' cat (they're away on vacation) and I didn't even realize that ours would get more than half a can of wet food until he stopped by the door and said wait, he guessed, just give her a full can... The only reason we feed her wet food every day is because our other cat, the dead one, she needed it, she was anemic, and she would put up such a fuss if the other cat got fed and she didn't.

What are we going to do now? Are we going to feed our now-only cat a full can once a week, like we used to? Is she going to get lonely now that there won't be another cat around, skittish and sneezy, senile and sleepy though she was? It's probably going to be even harder to get her to the vet now that she's seen the other one not come back...

So yeah. I guess I just wanted to tell someone. I'm going to have to tell everyone, I guess. Seems weird, to shout to the world, "my cat is dead!" I usually shout so many other things.

I've already cried, but I'll probably cry some more. I cried writing this. I'm going to be okay.

I love you. 

Viola?, I'm so sorry. It is very sad when a beloved pet dies, but it's part of having a pet. As time goes on, you'll feel less sad and be able to remember the good times you had together and laugh about them.

Admin

submitted by Viola?, age Secret, Secret
(April 27, 2019 - 7:44 pm)

Aww, Viola?. *Hugs* I remember when my cat died... I think I was five? She was old, and one day I was calling for her and she never came. I figured she might've been napping or something. I shrugged and got on with the morning. At dinner, our parents broke it to us that they took her to the vet because... she had digestion problems, I think? Whatever it was, she wouldn't have been able to live very long, and they put her to sleep. So then my little kid mind put the two pieces together and then I got really sad.

We're here for all the virtual hugs you need. Losing a pet can be hard. It's okay! We feel you. If you need anything, even to be left alone, we'll be happy to help. 

submitted by Soren Infinity, age 27 eons, BeaconTown
(April 27, 2019 - 10:39 pm)
submitted by Top!
(April 27, 2019 - 11:28 pm)

Oh, Viola. *hugs* I’m so sorry. I understand—I’ve lost a lot of pets over the years. That’s mostly due to being able to have lots of pets, which is a blessing. But it’s so, so hard. Last fall my dog died. She was fifteen or sixteen and she had cancer and bad arthritis. We had had her since I was three. It’s still weird to get up and feed my other dog and not fill her bowl too. She lived longer than the vet told us she would, though. She lived longer than any of us thought. And she died at home, at night, on her bed. By that point she couldn’t walk and if she had made it until the next morning we would have had to put her down, so really, as much as I wish she was still here, it was better that way. Her ashes are in a can now, in my parents room. I don’t know what we’re going to do with them. 

And I didn’t cry. I felt terrible—I still do. But I just didn’t. Maybe because I was expecting it. Maybe because since she had cancer and we knew she didn’t have long I had already been mourning her, a little.

That turned into a rant about me, sorry. All that to say—I understand. Pets aren’t just like family, they are a part of the family, and losing family members is devastating. But Admin is right. Eventually, the wound will begin to heal and you’ll be able to remember her and laugh. Something that helped me when my dog died was to remember that she had a very good life. And a long one, too. And I hated seeing her suffer—she was in so much pain at the end. And I’m not sure what you believe, but personally, I believe that I’ll see her again in heaven. Another thing that helps is to spend time with the remaining pet. They’re often mourning, too.

Whatever you need—virtual hugs, tissues, or a place to rant—we’re here.  

submitted by Leeli
(April 28, 2019 - 8:21 am)

Oh Viola?, I am so very sorry. It's always the worst knowing that you'll never see your pet again, unless in dreams. But, I'm sure that your cat will be an angel and watch over you and make sure that you are safe. 

But, your cat wouldn't want you to stay sad all the time, and she wouldn't want you to forget about her, so long as you remember her in a happy way, she'll never die. 

submitted by HoodedMidnight, age ..., Forest of Magic
(April 28, 2019 - 8:47 am)

I'm sorry. I hope your cat is at peace now, in the oblivion or in heaven or wherever she is. <heart>

<sends support>

submitted by Applejaguar, Wisteria
(April 28, 2019 - 10:52 am)

Some of my cats had FIV (Feline Immunodeficiency Virus), and died. We still have one, a grumpy old one that's a year older than me, and she's less grumpy now that she's the only one... But, still, she's not the same as the other two. The other two (actually three, but the first one died like six years ago, so I don't remember him all that well), were the sweetest, most adorable cats ever.

For days after they died, (not the same day, obviously), I couldn't even cry. I just... choked up.

Remember, though, if you need to cry, just have a good sob. Seriously, there's no shame in it, and you'll feel way better.

submitted by Catsclaw
(April 28, 2019 - 11:22 am)

*hugs* *feels awkward about it* *goes off to reread Warriors for the umpteenth time*

submitted by Catsclaw
(April 28, 2019 - 11:23 am)

We've had two guinea pigs die (my dad is allergic to cats). For some reason if you don't watch the whole thing happen, it's just so... unreal, like they'll be back any moment. You have complete license to rant whatever you need here. 

submitted by Jwyn, age 14, The Realm Of Creativity
(April 28, 2019 - 1:53 pm)

Viola, I'm so sorry. I know how hard it is to lose a pet-- we had to put our cat Sophia to sleep last year. She was ancient and a little frustrating at times, but she was still a sweet cat and I miss her. If you want to talk it out more, the CB is always here for you. 

submitted by Agent Winter, age Classified
(April 28, 2019 - 4:21 pm)

Oh, that is so sad, Viola?.

:( 

I'm really sorry it happened. I would offer you lemonade, but I don't know if you're in the mood . . . . (ugh I am really bad at being sympathetic sorry!)

Maybe just remember that she's happier now? 

submitted by SpiffySad
(April 28, 2019 - 2:50 pm)

Oh, Viola, I'm so sorry.  I've never had a pet, so I don't understand how it is, but I hope you can feel all the virtual hugs I'm sending. I'm sure your cat was totally awesome, and if she knew how horrible you're feeling she'd want you to cheer up. Remember that everything happens for a reason, and that she lived a happy life, and maybe now that she died quickly, she wasn't in pain. Remember she's happy now. *lots and lots of hugs*

submitted by Twirlgirl, age 13, My Imaginary Dance Studio
(April 28, 2019 - 4:44 pm)

I am so, so sorry, Viola?! I haven't actually had any pets die, so I can't really say I know what you're going through, but I'm really sorry anyway and... I don't know what I'm saying here...

*hugs*

*hugs again* 

submitted by Kitten, Pondering
(April 28, 2019 - 6:20 pm)

Yeah, that's really sad when a pet dies. I'm sorry. I've never really had the same experience, so I'm not really sure what it feels like. *hugs*

I had a hamster a couple years ago and he died of cancer. I was a sad, but not that  much because I wasn't really that attached to him. Then we buried him in our backyard. 

And like Admin said, you'll be able to look back at the good times together later. 

submitted by Dandelion
(April 28, 2019 - 6:39 pm)

Viola, I'm really sorry. I hope you find a way to be okay, though it may take some time.

submitted by Summer, age pi, Nowhere at all
(April 28, 2019 - 7:07 pm)

Oh, Viola. *hugs* It's so hard to lose a pet. I lost two cats and it felt so terrible and I totally get what you're going through. And know that you're not alone. We are here for you, whatever you need, whether you need to talk about it or not, or if you need more hugs or anything else, don't hesitate to ask. *hugs again* I'm praying for you.  

submitted by Leo
(April 28, 2019 - 8:24 pm)