That was so weird and embarassing. 

Boo says wuat. I don't know, you tell me what!  

I'm going to go see a ballet later with my best friend and she told me, all she can think about is how she might be in this next year since she. Got. Into. The. Ballet. Corps.

Ebob? Hazel...electronic Bob? Like an ebook? Okay, so who wants an ebob? 

*bangs head on the desk* Why don't I understand Algebra. Everyone else doessssssssss....urgh.

I hold myself to this image that I have to fulfill, it's probably tearing me apart from the inside. I have such a hyper-inflated sense of failure that I try too hard. Just last night I caught myself whispering "I have to translate this perfectly." It's getting bad. It's like trying to balence on the top of a smooth ball and my only handholds and footholds are blades. All my life I've been seen as brilliantly smart. I've never gotten a grade less than an A. It's engrained itself into my mind that I worry about letting people see how hard this is for me. I have to be this brilliant kid who doesn't feel. I cannot let them see I feel. And I CANNOT. EVER. Fail.

Help me. 

Oh my gosh that is so flipping funny

(I swear I couldn't stop laughing)

I think it's a mark of how infatuated everyone is with Taylor Swift, that when she puts out a new single she gets to take over all of iTunes! And I have never seen anyone else get to do that. I actually have nothing against it, I think it's cool that all of iTunes right now is just "Taylor Taylor Taylor" but it's just that I've never known any other artist to be able to do that.

People like Taylor Swift. 

There’s nothing quite like having a cat sleep on you. It’s very relaxing. 

The universe is so massive. Has anyone else realized that? Like, not a single person on this planet has walked every inch of land out there, and yet there are forms in space 100 billion times bigger than our little globe. We are so far away from even the moon and Mars- so far away that we need weird abstract measurements to even comprehend how far away we are. It takes nine months to travel to Mars. What haven't we seen? What will we ever see? We might be so alone in our little universe, but we still try to succeed and work hard and laugh and make friends and be happy even though none of it matters in the long run. Even though we might never meet another intelligent species, even though an asteroid could hit our ball of rock at any moment, even though we're all going to decompose eventually and the sun will blow away all that remains, we still live life to the fullest and strive to be as happy as we can be. And I think that's absolutely amazing.

Just something I think about a lot.