Hi, Luminescence. 

Just wanted to pop in and say some stuff, since I can't PM you anymore :(

*clears throat*

Lumi, you are literally the kindest person I know- and yes, we have never met face-to-face, but I feel like I have seen you, and I still see you, reading through every comment you make.

You appear next to me and tell me everything is okay, and somehow I feel better.

The little voice inside my head that says I can do anything, and that I matter, sounds like you.

So thank you, Lumi, for keeping my raft afloat on the waters of depression. 

(In response to your earlier comment about feeling guilty)

I understand so much more than you think.

I was born privileged and am constantly reminded of it. I dont know what I can do with just my words, though, and how I can use the incredible life I was given. 

I see kids being bullied every single day, in my memories, because the school I used to go to was a toxic place and what happened there will always haunt me.

And then I think, what can I do to help? 

And I don't know the answer. 

Maybe I could connect people through words, through stories, because I've always been better at writing than talking. 

Or I could find the words inside me and speak out, stand up, make a difference.

And I know if I can imagine these things, you can do them, Lumi, because you are the master of motivation, the queen of kindness, and my friend.

I believe in you.

Go change the world, Lumi, just know that I am always here for you.

~dreamiing

I know what you feel like, I recently figured I did have adhd which sucks now I can barely focus and the fact that I have about a million chunks of homework, a really important test which defines my curriculum next year, a meeting with the dean that I totally did not forget about, plus a very distracting younger sister doesn't help much.

and same! It seems like in every book the adhd character is.....literally just minor. They're not doing anything super important and it's just annoying me.  

And ohhhh myyyyyyyyyyy gandalfffffffffffffff that reminds me I forgot to eat breakfast for the past week- uhhh righhtttt i also neeed to go brush my hair. (Thank you for reminding me-)

sorry about the horrible spelling and whatever I'm on an iPad and I can't type. 

-night sky- 

Oh my gosh, I relate to this so much.

I have known that I have had it since 2nd grade so it just feels really normal to me but I am also aware taht most people don't share the experiences that I have because of it. It might not be considered particularly "severe" (actually I have a friends with a really severe version of it so I know she has it worse than me) but it interferes with my life daily in so many ways. I like it when I find other people who experience those same things taht I didn't even think about being symptoms. I often forget to eat, brush my hair, and change my clothes, too and will be telling myself to stop doing ___ for over an hour without stopping.  

I haven't actually notice that in movies or books but AD/HD really isn't "having a bunch of energy." 

Aww you're so welcome <333 you've always been there for me when I needed help, and I'm so glad I could help you too *hugs*

Alas, typos. The second parentheses about the quasedilla is supposed to end with "never to make a quasedilla with swiss cheese." The third to last sentence should end with too, not to. *tsks loudly at self*

I feel really bad for not commenting on your first post, but I just wanted to say that you're an super amazing person, Lumi! Honestly, I think you're one of the kindest people I've ever "met", and it's been super fun to get to know you. Like I said before, I'm sorry this is so late! 

I was about to respond to your insecurities post, but then I got distracted.

Anyway, I think you are one of the kindest CBers here Lumi! You bring everyone's spirits up and make other CBers feel better! 

Hey, Nyx! 

I may be able to help you with this. But I do really think that it would be a good idea to talk to your parents about this. I know sometimes you might feel like your feelings or mental illness are not valid because so many other people have it worse. But that's not true. Your emotions and mental health are important. 

Here are some ADHD symptoms but it varies from person to person. 

-Impulsity 

-Short attention span

-Poor memory/time management 

-Excutive dysfunction (this means its hard for you to do tasks especially ones that you're not motivated to do.)

-Depression when understimulated (bored)

-Hyperfixations (this is when you're really fixated on a certain topic, think about it a lot, sort of obessed.) 

-Auditory Processing Disorder (can be hard to process sounds) 

-Having trouble making friends/feeling uncomfortable making eye contact. 

My understanding of ADHD is limited and these are only symptoms. For anxiety, feeling very nervous, imagining the worst possible scenarios, not speaking because you're afraid of saying something wrong. 

Again, I highly encourage you to do some of your research. You can also find tests online that can tell you whether or not you should see a medical professional to get diagnosed. This tests do not diagnose you. If you're nervous about your parents believeing you, you can gather information and show them test and/or research you've done. I strongly advise to talk to your parents about it because that's very important and can really help. I know you might feel like you're drawing attention away from your dad's PTSD but I really doubt he will think that and he'll probably support you because he knows what it's like to have a mental illness. Trying to get a medical diagnosis is a good end goal but only if it's possible for your financial situation. 

I think some first steps would be doing some more research, possibly taking a few tests, and then talking to your parents about it.  I wish you the best of luck, Nyx!