Hmm. First things first, have a little talk with A. A telling people secrets that you don't want them to know isn't being a very good friend. Second of all, you don't have to tell B anything about your crush if you don't want to! You could just not tell them, or lie and point to some totally random person. No matter how good your friends are, they aren't entitled to knowing everything about you!

Ah, I feel ya Midnight. There's not much you can do, unfortunately. Just do your best to stay positive and not blame yourself. This isn't your fault, and it doesn't have to tear you apart.

I'm so sorry, Midnight! I wish there was some advice I could give, but there isn't... All I can give are y wishes for you to be happy. <3

Ugh, that sucks. Personally, I'd rather be alone then in bad company, but I can see why it's hard sometimes.

If they complain about you for hanging out without them, when they do the same, feel free to point out how hypocritical that is, and how you won't take that kind of nonsense. Also, can they really be considered friends if they're treating you with so little respect? Like, talking about you behind your back, ditching you, gaslighting you when you try to strike out on your own -- it just doesn't sound very healthy at all. Same with the 'friends' that moved away -- absolutely friggin ice-cold if you ask me. 

One of the first things I was taught in Friendship 101 was this:

- If your friends won't let you hang out with anybody else, they aren't good friends.

Especially because even if you take away that fact and they still aren't good friends.

Alrighty, looky here. People always say "YoU sHoUlD tAlK tO tHeM," but trying to tell people who are being rude how you feel is a), awkward, b) usually ends up in them denying blame and blaming you and then you just feel worse (trust me, I should know. I've been through this so many times more than I'd like to), and c) doesn't usually work.

So just go and hang out with other people. Stop eating lunch with them. They might get mad at you, but why should you care what they think of you when they are being so rude? Just keep your cool and move away from them. Don't get emotional, because mean people like that don't deserve your emotion, and if you get too worked up you might end up losing sight of your whole goal to leave them and just end up stuck with them again.

Good luck!

Hi, Ik I wrote this a long time ago and idk if any of you will care anymore but...recently, I texted my toxic friend group and bascially told them that they'd been mistreating me and if they kept it up, we couldn't be friends anymore. Some of them denied it but honestly none of them seemed to really care, which proved that my friendship just didn't really matter to them. After that I really wasn't part of that group anymore, because bringing myself to still hang out with them would just feel like defeat. For a while I didn't have anyone to spend time with at school and I still sorta don't...although there's a girl in my photography class who I'm becoming better friends with, and she lets me eat lunch with her friends so at least I don't have to sit alone. I wish I'd broken off my toxic friends earlier because school ends next week and I have hardly any time to become closer friends with anyone before next year. I did decide with my parents last-minute to go to a sleepaway camp in July because I've been working on building my confidence and I think that will help. I'm still not exactly in a stable friend situation, but things have definitely gotten better and I'm really hopeful about next year.

Thank you for reading!! <33 

I'm sorry it feels like that :/ I

I feel like my own moods have been reduced to stressed/frustrated, exhausted, hungry, and yearning for the creativity I've partially buried for the sake of 'maturing.'

Just as a side note, having two close/reliable friends is already a feat, even if it doesn't sound like it. Sometimes a sweet few of something amazing is better than a million so-so instances of the same. It's also okay to not feel alright all the time. I'd recommend looking into anxiety resources if it really feels like everything is falling apart a lot of the time. Keep in mind, the big picture is a lot more stable than each day might have you feel, and as hard as it might be to accept, our emotions can make things feel so much worse than they actually are sometimes. Deep breathes. You'll be alright, right?

I kind of feel the exact same way sometimes, because I'll be feeling absolutely miserable and ignored, but then someone does something nice for me and I'll be like, you know, maybe everything's going to be okay. but then things dont turn out okay, and I just shrug off the misery or turn it into boiling fury.

my advice (or at least what I do) is to 1. listen to music that matches your mood, and try to turn it into something poetic and bearable. 2. listen to angry music, or do other things that will turn you into a boiling pot of fury (don't reccomend this one) 3. this has been suggested on the CB before, but imagine that there's a miserable, sad, bitter AE or OC or something that's making you miserable, and imagine that you're whacking them with a broom.

ignore this if it doesen't help :/

may this time of sadness pass and not return! 

I get the feeling...

You just have to do your best. Sometimes you'll feel a little depressed. Sometimes you're just grinding through life until something better happens. But just keep pushing through, and remember nothing lasts forever, especially not bad times.