I'm sorry. That sucks. I'm not sure what advice to give, but I'm here for you if you want to rant or something. *sends sympathy and empathy and a goat with a sandwitch (long story)*

wow looking at this again—I'm not usually this pessamistic lol :/

Bro I'm not judging that's sorta my life

like

i can't question who I like, my friend's already got it all figured out

and of course im only trying to be a copycat  

i think I might have anxiety too

but it can't be that bad because my friend's is so much worse

and im making it up for attention 

is not wanting to do anything depression? Is feeling horrible for no discernible reason depression?

no it couldn't be, my friend has it so much worse you had no idea

you don't know anything 

look at you you're good at everything, the golden child, you have a best friend who most people will never have anyone like, your life is good your family's good you're not fighting in a war

you don't have a right to feel bad.

so instead of letting out emotions you put on music make a dumb joke become really good at that mask face so your friend won't tell how wildly insecure you are

because she has other friends and you don't 

and one day she'll realize, oh wow, you're not cool

or get a girlfriend, someone so much better than you could ever be.

(I relate on an extreme level)

this was a ramble I'm sorry admins (and anyone reading this; it's a vent/brain sketch)

heyyyyy i relate

i don't really have any advice for you because of course i am going through similar things

but

hey you're not alone 

No-one's judging, Hex, hun. I think we all get these kinds of feeling, some more than others, and I'm pretty sure that's a normal and somewhat healthy part of life.

I, for one have diagnosed ADHD and anxiety amongst other things lol and yeah, it can be a strange balance between knowing you're not "normal," knowing that plenty of people in the world suffer with the same conditions, and many more with much worse. I personally try not to focus to much on the conditions themselves and how they make life difficult, but rather try to find out how to circumvent or treat the symptoms. Like, yeah, maybe you're not "normal" and get overwhelmed with large crowds easily (I get it, I went to my first American Football game with a pair of friends recently. It was just a school team, and I knew some people there but I still had a panic attack and had to just hang out at the edges and get babied by the friends there (I felt really terrible about that), but they were super sweet and understanding about it; no questions, no drama or anything.) It felt absolutely horrible at the time, but it wasn't really that big of a deal in the long run or big picture. I still never want to go through that again, but I can easily avoid going to that kind of event and do literally anything else with my friends instead. It takes a lot of work sometimes, but you can overcome or at least minimize your suffering when it comes to these conditions.

I think it also helps to not compare your level of suffering to others; there will always people who have it worse than you, and always some that have it better, but comparing yourself to that will always make you feel worse in the long run. I'd suggest you be a little more... "selfish," for lack of a better word. It doesn't matter how much you hurt, you shouldn't be ignored (even if there are bigger problems out there in the world). You matter, and that isn't going to change. Little problems can add up quick to become larger ones, and either way they deserve to be dealt with properly, and not hidden because "what if they're not important enough?" ok?

Just know you're not along, girlie. We totally understand, and would never think of you less just because you feel this way! <3<3<3 

Just because people might have more problems or even bigger problems than you doesn't mean yours don't matter, guys. It's okay to not be happy with where you are, even if, in the long run, it looks like you're okay. Life sucks for everyone. Nobody's so "privileged" they never experience a hardship or feel sad or lonely or misunderstood. Even if there are people who have it worse than you, way worse, that doesn't mean you never get to feel bad.

Don't worry, I'm not going to judge you! We all have times when we just feel unhappy, sometimes for a good reason, sometimes for no reason at all. Especially us writer types :)

It's good that you feel like your experiences add up to just nervousness! It's normal to be a little nervous around people, especially if the other people aren't being friendly or polite, or if they aren't trying to make you feel at home. But practice helps! Social interaction is kind of like a complicated, but very fun, dance - you have to know the basic steps, but you can still improvise. Of course, if other people don't know the steps and go hopping all over the room doing a polka when it's supposed to be a minuet, it's going to be a lot harder to do your part. But just remember, there are no standards or expectations (beyond basic ones, of course, like don't come into the room and shriek "HOWDY DO" at the top of your lungs lol) that you have to live up to. Just be yourself! Here on the CB you're really funny and interesting, and with practice I'm sure you'll be able to be the same irl, if you aren't already! Interacting with other people is meant to be fun, entertaining: a chance to get new ideas, share your thoughts, be who you are. If you start talking, and if the other people respond well, it's great! And if they don't respond well, that's their problem, not yours.

To be truthful, you're right to remind yourself that other people's problems are worse than yours.  Not that you shouldn't address your feelings and deal with them in a healthy way - that's definitely what you should do! But it can also help to see what other people go through. You're lucky that you're able to live a "super-fortunate" life!

But then again, sometimes we need more in our lives than just hanging around feeling fortunate. I think I saw you mention that you're an ISTP - if I might make a suggestion, maybe you need more action, more problem-solving, in your life. Maybe you could consider volunteering for social work or something like that - then you could do something, and help others, and it might help you feel better and take you out of yourself a little. Honestly, doing something for other people, especially ones who really need your help, is really rewarding and a great way to put your own problems in context, as well as feeling better about yourself. You don't need to want to be "different" - you are different already, and there are people out there who need you.

Now I sound like an Uncle Sam poster. Oh well :) That's my advice, I hope it helps you and everything gets worked out :)

Thank you, everyone who responded. Most of it was actually really helpful and nice to hear :) 

*claps hands*