Which part of the nounself pronouns are you confused about?

Silver, you’re absolutely right about how people will go to weird lengths to make people have colorful eyes (often along with hair). I hate it. Admittedly I’m a big PJO/HOO fan though XD At the very least, Riordan didn’t assign powers to the eyes or anything. I hate that so much. For the record, I believe Piper is half white, though.

I’d absolutely adore talking more about characters. I may be slightly obsessed with the one I mentioned (the one with the green eyes, not the antagonist guy) XD I can’t go too much in detail because CB restrictions, though :(((

So idk for sure what his name is (his “official” name is one I made up, Reshinerr, which idk if i like anymore just as a name. He may or may not end up changing his name though, probably to something like Sketch or something related to stuffies. His main special interest is a book series so he’s probably going to want to go by one of those characters’ names XD) As far as genders go, I think mostly xenogenders and then as I said before, with binary/”normal” genders that rely on that, it’s “this one’s cool but this one hurts” because he doesn’t get them too much. I recently added him to another story (the one I was going to talk about) XD maybe I’ll post some of that so you can get to know him better because he’s so great XD 

He’s autistic (I might make him ADHD too but idk) and that’s a large part of why i adore him so much because he’s so much like meeeee and usually even the ableist books (because that’s the only time we ever get visibly autistic or remotely disabled autistics) are kind of more normal than I am. As I mentioned, his special interest is a book series and it’s like a graphic novel series for kids and his other special interest (they kind of cycle) is stuffies, and he brings a stuffed cat named Speckle everywhere. The antagonist guy, Chazz, torments him about it but if he doesn’t have her he will basically just meltdown and become nonfunctional. Anyway he’s also basically a huge ball of anxiety and incredibly socially anxious and easily frustrated/lashes out easily and figures everything is hopeless. He loves drawing (only also kind of hates it because it started out as something he did to entertain himself because he basically stays in his room all day) too. And also he likes joking and is pretty good at, like, one line jokes but try to get him to talk to you after that and he either won’t answer or will try to start talking about Speckle instead. (He knows people usually don’t like it but it makes him so happy and he doesn’t know why they don’t like it because how could you not like it and also he can’t always control the words coming out of his mouth and then when people end up not liking it he gets really upset) also he usually speaks in kind of simple sentences when he feels like it and often can't speak much or at all but then he also can't really block stuff either.

although it's very annoying that I know (I just know) that if I was going to actually get that book published other autistic people would be like "but he's not incredibly low level 1!" *sobs* like, the most autistic people are allowed to struggle is like... mild meltdowns. (i'm not trying to imply they're not hard still, but like, there were people going on about how a TV show was showing how hard meltdowns actually are when... like that would be the mildest ever meltdown for me when do I get that kind? Especially because my parents either ignore me or get mad or try to make me take medicine (last time they poured water on me trying to get me to take medicine which did not help) and ugh sorry. anyway it's just... annoying) anyway I'm certain they'd be like "he's a stereotype!" or "no autistic person is actually like that!" even though I am directly pulling a lot of stuff from myself. like, even when people can acknowledge that nonverbal people exist, they expect them to think and act exactly like low level 1 people... (which plenty do, but plenty don't since being nonverbal or semiverbal is way more common when you're a higher level) it's just annoying. 

Anyway he’s also gay/pan (he’s pan, he just also uses gay) and he and his boyfriend (Hideto; the brother of the other mixed character) are kind of dysfunctional but also really understanding and adorable. They’re also very much a-spec; for Hideto it’s probably greyromantic as a type of relationship and for Reshinerr it’s probably alterous. (basically something that’s not romantic or platonic or in between)  I mean, they’re both physically disabled, both majorly traumatized, and Hideto has ADHD and doesn’t care about anything (a very bad combination, just ask me) and Reshinerr has autism and probably ADHD tbh. Also they're both trans :D they're amazing hehe

will post more later

I DESIRE A PICTURE OF THE FLOOF (dog) XD maybe i’ll post a picture of my kitten in a costume idk. He’s the biggest kitten :D (like, he’s really really big but he just acts like the tiniest boy) He really likes ballet. He will stare at the TV while I’m watching sometimes. I think he finds it inspiring because he’s very good at jumping :D 

Also thanks for asking about pronouns Silver. I kind of still feel weird for preferring nounself pronouns and if not then neos so I haven’t really mentioned it. To be clear, he/she is only okay if it’s alternating (or like he/her/him/either is fine for the self one); i actually don’t like “she” that much but “her” is great XD also that one’s probably not the best right now because i’m kind of stuck as one of them and that’s oof-y. I’m still too nervous to actually post the pronouns at the moment, but i’ll probably be able to soon.

Also that’s so great that there’s so many queer people where you live :D i don’t know how incredibly into gender roles my parents are; it’s not as bad as it could be, since they let me be pretty butch, but then again trying on clothes can be kind of stressful-y. I tried to ask for men’s clothes once. They actually let me get the shirt after some chaos… but then it was infinitely too big… *sobs* I’m like 5’2 max. I used to love being short because a.) more like a cat (i know i’m weird) and b.) easier to hide and c.) my grandma comes up to my chin at the very very most, but now the gender dysphoria is too much :’D It’s funny though because I either find myself too short bc gender stuff or too tall because i hate my age XD 

Also can you explain the “like if a girl was gay but also aroace but also maybe not” thing? Not judging, just confused. 

That’s probably not the best description of Reshinerr btw. He’s kind of hard to do justice without actually writing something with him in it tbh. But yes i like him far too much XD also i’m debating making him Hawaiian but probably because Hideto has more of a direct connection to Japan and I adore the idea of, like, Hideto making manju and Reshinerr is just shocked that it’s not baked (I found a manju recipe and allergy friendly-ified it and it was steamed and that’s technically normal but my dad, whose family has been in Hawai’i for who knows how long, was just like *pure shock* XD)

Also are both of you a-spec?!?! I am too and it’s interesting because i’m both far too romance repulsed and far too romance favorable for the average aro community :’P like the stuff that people like genuinely makes me sick and then a lot of the stuff i do like is more more similar to romance and stuff that is often hated. *sigh* also i hate the emphasis on friends. 

Tbh i’m kind of really uncomfortable with white people having Japanese names (there’s just so much weirdness about Japan and general East Asia, and also there’s the “it’s always an anime name” problem, actual meanings and the culture behind names are ignored, and then there’s the sort of… sense of unfairness because my parents purposefully didn’t give me the Japanese name they were going to because we were going to move to the Midwest, and then there’s the way it kind of echoes the many OCs who have random “aesthetic” Japanese things like folding fans or are “kitsune” (they’re only ever glorified fox spirits) and a weird Japanese name and super pale skin and green eyes and maybe like “perfect raven black hair” or whatnot. And i could go on) but i really do see the problem that white passing people are inevitably going to get called out… idk. That being said, with some cultures naming caries even more significance than it does in Japan and like… if you’re a non-Hawaiian, but especially a white person, but especially a white person who has no connection to Hawai’i or has been there for like one or two generations, and you’re taking a Hawaiian name, that’s probably just not okay. I mean I’m not native Hawaiian but especially because of how hard white people have fought to erase Hawaiian culture, i just fail to see how that could be okay. 

but yes dog picture pleaseeeeee 

Update: am far too excited about the manju thing (it’s really not that funny but I just adore it so much)

Also to specify, it’s nothing wrong with being low level one (and i know levels are controversial but they’re just an easy way to phrase it and frankly the idea that they’re useless is just… wrong). Also i’m really not trying to say that “milder” meltdowns aren’t still hard. It’s just that… idk. 

I have been reading too much analysis of autistic characters and “how to write autistic characters” lately though and frankly it’s not been great. Especially the analyses, because of how often they will end up being like “that’s a stereotype and very ableist!” to… legitimate autism symptoms… like “autistic people don’t make everything about their special interest” but what if they do? Or worse, “autistic people can, and enjoy, talking about things other than their special interests!” like… it’s just objectively false. And literally all they’d have to do to fix it would be to make it “some autistic people (thing)” because then both of those things would be objectively true. If either of you have thoughts on this (any of this) i’d be very interested to hear them.  

Magic system dysfunction ranting time!!!! Yayyyyyy! So this is from the book that Reshinerr’s from (well, the one that I stuck him into, the actual one’s very different XD) basically it’s an issue of conflicting needs and conflicting aesthetics. I need the mood to be very dreamy, and I need the magic itself to be very much an escape from reality. But i also need it to not break the plot. And that there is where the issue comes in. 

So basically, the best solution I have is that Reshinerr can draw things (he’s a really good artist) and then he can bring them to life from the clouds. This comes with some amount of control over them just in general. (which is where the plot breaking comes in, because how do i quantify that into a limit that isn’t going to break everything?)

Also it’s funny how i’m like “oh yeah i love this character they’re me” and immediately start going into all the many ways they’re dysfunctional XDDD

Do either of you get that attached to characters? If so you can talk about them :D and general writing stuff.

Hopefully i’ll find a good picture of Vivace/Fritz soon! (His “official” name is Vivace but now I call him Fritz because he acts like Fritz from The Nutcracker, who breaks the nutcracker) 

Ok, here are some pics (its hard to get good pics of her since she moves around so much tho...)

She looks like a cloud here lol

She looks like a fox when she sleeps like this >///w///<