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submitted by Anonymous, age x, x
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
(April 15, 2021 - 12:01 pm)
I'm-secretly-crushing-on-a-She-ra-villean
(April 25, 2021 - 5:00 pm)
me-too-don't-worry
(May 19, 2021 - 7:24 am)
I know this thread hasn't been posted on in a while but I felt like a rant.
I feel like people don't care about me. I've been on the CB for about a year, give or take. I've posted a bunch, to make myself known and stuff. My posts usually get like 1-3 responses, not including TOPs. It feels like people aren't as interested in my work as they are interested in the older, more well-known CBer's work.
Heres an example: I posted a piece of art that I was proud of on an art thread. No one replied. I waited a couple of days and no one replied. Eventually a new page opened up, so I figured that I could give up hope. Pretty depressing. But you know what was even more depressing? On the new page a CBer had posted a piece of art quite similar to mine. Within not even a DAY someone replied.
I don't think it had anything to do with talent. Make no mistake, this CBer is super talented! I don't bear any grudges towards them for this. But I think our talents are evenly matched. Am I just imagining things, and feeling sorry for myself because of it? Please let me know. I'm off to a little black hole where I can wallow in self pity and cry a little bit.
But if you can let me know what's happening, or just give me a little bit of comfort, I'd really appreciate that.
-Anonymous
(June 20, 2021 - 8:25 am)
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(October 19, 2021 - 3:40 pm)
TOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOP!!! Keep this thread going forever!!!!
(November 12, 2021 - 10:28 pm)
TOP OF DTE! TOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOPTOP
(November 13, 2021 - 8:36 am)
DON'T LET THIS THREAD EVER END!
(November 13, 2021 - 8:40 am)
Feel free to comment people! Maybe someday I will reveal who I actually am!
(November 14, 2021 - 7:42 am)
My cousin is really sick with covid and she's in the ICU. I'm so so so scared.
*sobs unconsolable tears*
PLEASE get the vaccine people. Especially now that most of you will be eligible. It's so important.
I'm so sorry to hear this. I'll pray for her, all others with Covid, and for healthcare workers.
Admin
(November 14, 2021 - 5:31 pm)
I'm so sorry, anon. That sounds super scary, and I can only imagine how you feel right now. I'll keep her in my thoughts and prayers.
(November 15, 2021 - 2:33 pm)
I like listioning to music that makes me sad or mad or any other feeling other than happy. Why? Because I feel like I'm always seen as a delicate side character in the story of life. I aestheticise being a villian, like somehow that will make me feel better. I'm just sick of being seen as a child. I want to be seen as a powerful force who can and will change the world. But I don't care if it's for the better or worse, I just...
Want power.
It feels evil, like a black plauge slowly clouding my veins but I don't really care. It's always in the back of my mind.
And I'm just upset about life...
I might seem like a happy person, and sometimes I am, but often I feel heartwrenching pain inside. But the worst part is-
I just can't cry. It takes months for me to let it all out and it hurts.
And I overdramitise my problems, or my life or anything. And I can't explain my feelings. And I'm sick of correcting pronouns and she/her in other places and I just want to come out but I cant, because they don't even know what nonbinary is or you can use they/them for a single person. They assume gender so much and I'm sick of it and I want to scream and cry and just break and rebiuld and just~
*sighs* I'm sorry.
(November 15, 2021 - 8:40 pm)
Hi, Writing.
I don't really know how to help. I don't even know if you were really asking for help, actually. But I'll try.
That black plaque slowly clouding your veins you described, and wanting power? I understand why you would want power. Actually, most people do. But there are many other ways to be powerful in the world. And there are many other ways for you to feel seen. Have you considered empowering other people who are nonbinary? That feels like something you'd be good at, and it would mean more power and voice to people like you.
You like art, right? Actually, I've seen your art, and it's really good! You said you don't know how to explain your feelings? Have you tried, maybe, drawing them? It doesn't have to be a drawing of anything. Just whatever comes out. Like a... Sketchbook-journal.
I do feel like you did a good job explaining your feelings here. I don't know what it is like in your shoes. But you did a good job making it known that it's hard. It isn't good to keep that inside! I think you should talk to someone. I know, I know, you'd probably already figured that out. That's hard too! Maybe just say what you wrote here. Or something like it? You don't have to tell the whole world, just someone you trust.
As for the part about being non-binary, maybe you should do some research about it. When you're ready to come out, show people books or websites you've found explaining what nonbinary means, and explain why you want to be known as someone who is. Chances are, the people you love and the people who love you will accept you.
That's kind of all I got. I hope I was able to help in some way. We are all here for you. I hope you know that.
(November 16, 2021 - 6:59 am)
*sobs* Thank you. *hugs*
(November 16, 2021 - 11:49 am)
I'm really not good at this sort of thing, so I hope this doesn't make things worse. But you're a really awesome CBer, and I love seeing your posts and such, and I wanted to see if I could help. So.
I totally know how you feel about not wanting to feel like a child. I'm working on some activism projects, like a letter protest about the way palm oil is produced, and everyone seems to think I'm too young to do anything. It's awful. But I want you to know: you have changed the Chatterbox, at the very least. And you've changed it for the better.
As a nonbinary person, I also relate to the pronouns part. It's super painful, and people don't realise that it's painful, either. If this makes you feel better, I will always use your pronouns. Writing_in_the_dark is a wonderful person, and their posts always make me happy, and their art is incredible, and this is all true by the way : )
I think it would be great for you to empower nonbinary people! Even letting people know that hey, nonbinary people exist (duh XD) would be powerful. (But don't come out if you're not ready. Coming out is for you to do when you want to, not a requirement.) There are many ways to use power for the better, and I think you could, and I think it would be great.
Again, I'm not good at this, so sorry, but I wish you luck : )
(November 16, 2021 - 10:26 am)