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submitted by Anonymous, age x, x
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
(October 15, 2020 - 1:43 pm)
I really wish I could just ignore compliment threads. I really do because I have so many mixed emotions about them and every time I see one it's the same thing. I click onit knowing it won't end well and lo and behold ten minutes later after I've scanned the list twice and my name isn't on it, I'm feeling horrible about myself. I know they bring such joy if you do get complimented and it's not fair to say I'm not "popular" or something because I'm not as active and once I did get complimented but I reallly wish I had the willpower to ignore them.
(November 30, 2021 - 2:06 pm)
I am so sorry. I made the latest compliment thread. But please go check it out. Go to the last page. You've been complimented!
(December 6, 2021 - 10:25 am)
Ok, here to rant
I hate it when I make a mistake, because no matter what it is, I feel guilty for so long. Even if it's something tiny, especially through text, I worry that the person's not gonna respond because I accidentally said something that I wasn't trying to say. This happened yesterday and I feel awful, but the person hasn't responded. I also apologized and corrected the mistake but they haven't answered.
oh and I have a crush. I haven't had one in forever. I wish he liked me back but he doesn't, he likes another girl, and it makes me sad. And as I'm writing this I realize I like him more than I thought.
On better news, I'm reading an AMAZING book series and the rest of the books are coming today!!!
Back to letting my mind wander
Yesterday was the very first time I admitted to myself I liked that person. And I kind of regret admitting it to myself because it makes me feel worse that he likes someone else. And worse than that because he's asked me for advice with this mystery girl. Telling me he likes someone who likes him back and then asking me advice as to what he should do. It makes me sad.
ALSO I kinda wanna change up my wardrobe. Last year I ONLY wore skinny jeans or leggings and baggy t shirts but now I'm into mom jeans and fitted tops. And I only have three fitted tops and two pairs of mom jeans and my friend already told me I was overwearing one of the shirts so... yeah.
Well I feel much happier now that I wrote that. Thank you, admins, for reading this post!
(December 12, 2021 - 11:50 am)
For some reason i will randomly fall in love with boys. like i will go into a store and see a boy and just.................fall in love * whole face goes red then digs hole and lays in it*....... but than ten minutes later i will forget about him
(December 16, 2021 - 2:53 pm)
Oh-ohmyitotallygetyou
Me too...
also with anime boys lol
(December 16, 2021 - 8:22 pm)
I got a perfect score on my progress report. Now my report card scores is about to be released and I'm really afraid I won't get a perfect score this time. I'm a pretty good student, I complete all my assignments on time and spend a lot of time on my school assignments. In class, I'm the "nerd", the "genius", and one of three kids in the grade who got a perfect score. I'm good in every class, math, science, ELA, and am a fast learner. I've only lost a Kahoot review game twice: once when I was absent the day before and the second time when...well, I have no excuse that time. The second time, this kid who's actually fairly nice to me went "no way *my irl name* came second place?" And maybe it was a compliment, that they were saying I was smart and couldn't believe I hadn't gotten first. But in my brain it translated into two words:
I failed
And I can't cope with failure. I work really hard, I try my best, and I revise and edit and reread my work until it's perfect. I take a lot of time to study and I review material and maybe I'm too hard on myself--
But even one three on my report card will mean failure to me. For someone else, maybe, a three would be good. For someone else, maybe, they'd be happy they got a three, this time, instead of a two. For someone else, maybe, it would be enough.
But not for me. I'll never be satisfied with my grades.
I'm always trying to do more, to get better, to improve. My grades need to be perfection. I need to be perfection.
Maybe I try too hard.
Maybe I'm making a big deal of things.
Maybe I'm way too hard on myself.
Maybe I feel bad about my grades last year, during remote learning.
Maybe I want good grades so I can get into a good high school.
Maybe I need to stand out, to make something of myself. To become something other than "the quiet girl", "the girl who doesn't laugh" "the origin of the 'neutral/expressionless face emoji'" "the awkward and socially anxious kid. (yes these are all nicknames i have been called, not the last one though that's just who i feel like)
*rereads to check for errors* *realizes I made a slight Hamilton reference* If you spot the reference kudos to you.
(December 16, 2021 - 4:36 pm)
Oh, I can understand that stress. But I want you to know that you are much, much, more than your grades. What are you so worried is going to happen if you do get a 3 on your report card? And if you get a 3, how much do you think it will really matter? Remember that 3s really are still good, weather you had all 2s or all 4s. You might think that you failed in that section, but you really did okay! Try not to put so much pressure on yourself. You are going to be okay. Even if that report card had all 3s, you'd be fine. People will still love you. You don't have to be perfect. Nobody is perfect, after all.
Also, is the Hamilton reference "I'll never be satisfied?"
(December 17, 2021 - 7:19 am)
I am a nerd as well, but I go to a school that's full of nerds so I've never felt this kind of pressure. I've heard about it a lot, though, and . . . it's so hard to adress, because you've got to have standards for yourself. You've got to, or else you'll never try. But there is a line, and I feel like here you've crossed that line. Set high expectations, yes. Try to do hard things, yes. But if you don't manage to get that, that's okay. Try again next time. It doesn't mean you're stupid. It doesn't mean you didn't try hard enough. It means you're not perfect. No human being is perfect.
Also, side note - grades are stupid and a terrible measure of worth and/or intelligence and/or knowledge.
And I think I might have gotten the Hamilton reference. I had to go back and scan for it after reading it the first time, though.
Hope that was helpful! Or at least an alright pep talk. <3
(December 17, 2021 - 8:27 am)
Hey, self-proclaimed nerd, one word for you: same.
I, too, always felt like I need to be perfect in everything. In Kahoots, I almost never loose. I'm mad at myslef when I get a 90. I blush if I miss a question in class.
And I understand how hard it is - but I've got some good news for you -
You didn't fail
You might have made a mistake, but failure and mistakes are different things - failure means you didn't try your hardest - mistakes mean you learned something and that you'll be able to try again. And, you will be able to try again - and you tried your absolute best, and that is the biggest success you can hope for you.
Another thing - people like you for you. They don't care about your mistakes, and even if they seem like they are making fun of you, you need to know that they are only doing it because it makes them fell better. They probably don't even realize it is hurting you - you can always tell them it is hurting you, and I'm sure they will stop - if they don't, then they don't deserve you and you should just ignore them.
And finally - embrace it! Embrace mistakes, and instead of feeling disappointed, anaylse the situation, found out what you did wrong, learn, and forget about it. My mother always says that you can give your one minute to feel bad, and then to put it behind you. You can't change the past, but you can change the future. Instead of worrying about what you did, what people thought of you, put it behind you and turn your face to the future. You can do anything in that future - anything at all - just be yourslef, and don't think about whatever people think - they are only pieces in the game of life, and you will always be able to check-mate them as long as you try.
But, the biggest point in all of this - It is OKAY to make mistakes. You've got this. As long as you tried your best, you are the biggest success there can be.
I hope this helps!
(December 17, 2021 - 3:32 pm)
I totally get being called the 'smart one' and stuff; the other day a boy wouldn't shut up about how 'annoyingly smart' and 'robotic' and 'expressionless' I was. It sucks sometimes, but I totally get the need to be perfect and get perfect grades. In middle school, I was so stressed and had such high standards for myself, I did everything I could to keep my grades in the all As. And I never did get anything less than an A-, because I worried and stressed so much. And it's good to be diligent about school and grades, but not to the point of it being all-consuming. Now I'm in high school, and to be honest, I'm a lot more chill about my grades. I'll try my hardest and if that's an A then that's good, but if it's a B or a C then that's okay too. Currently I have three Bs in my classes and I actually don't mind that much, which feels really liberating. My point to this random ramble is to just try as hard as you can, and whatever the outcome is, that's good enough <333
(December 17, 2021 - 5:41 pm)
Ok, so I kind of have a crush. I have only ever had one other crush before and it was fairly short lived. I have never had a bf and Idk what to do. There is no way I can go to my sisters and my best friend is still at the stage where it is like boys=blech. Anyways, I kind of have a problem.
Oh yeah and this other boy walked over to me the other day while I was hanging out with my basketball team, and was flirting with me. So basically my life is a whole big mess ig?
(December 17, 2021 - 9:41 pm)
I know how you feel. I've liked someone for .... 1..2...5 years. Yeah that's long. I can't say I'm the best person for advice though, because... I don't know how to help. But yeah, it's hard to find someone to tell about that type of thing. I'm lucky because I have very close friends. But remember that it literally happens to most people and it's something that is usually kind of emotionally messy. (And don't get mad at them if they don't like you that is a terrible way to go, trust me)
(December 20, 2021 - 10:26 pm)
I have a crush, and the boy I like likes a different girl. Openly, too. He asked me for ADVICE on it because she liked him back. I still like him and sometimes it seems like he likes me back but I know it's just hopeful thinking... so yeah. Any advice?
Also- @Help! I totally get that. It's happened to me before as well. If you're not already friends with your crush, talk to him! I mean if you're not already friends it probably sounds hard, but it's not as hard as it seems, I promise!
(December 20, 2021 - 12:48 am)
um, hi.
Sorry about, you know, dropping off of the face of the earth. again.
So it's been a while! And I feel like y'all deserve an explanation. Because I left like a total of three rps and two ski lodges and whatever else I'm forgetting.
Basically I think this is a last goodbye sort of thing. I'm in high school and there is a lot of stuff going on with preparing for college, midterms, and life in general. I probably wont interact anymore but I'll try to come back for the reunions! It was lovely to meet you all and I hope you all go on to be aspiring artists, authors, actors, and whatever else you want to do. I have a lot of really nice memories with you all so thank you.
And to the admins, thank you for letting there be such an amazing place for young artists to explore their interests. you guys really are the backbone of the cb. thank you <3
Love you all,
Skip <3
Best wishes to you, Skip, and do remember to come back for the February 14 reunions!
Admin
(December 21, 2021 - 10:15 pm)
Aw, we're gonna miss you, Skip! *hugs* We'll see you at the reunions!
PS- merry Christmas!!!!!
(December 25, 2021 - 5:33 pm)