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if it helps at all, i very much don't think it's fine if your life is ruined or if you're unhappy. and if it helps, i highly doubt that anyone here thinks of you as "that weird girl", and if they do it's almost certainly in a positive way (i mean most people here are kind of weird). and you can always be yourself here! nobody will think any worse of you. also seconding what the admins said. this is all i can think of at the moment but you're always welcome here and you're always welcome to rant. it's awful when nobody cares and i'm really sorry you're going through that. and i promise there are people out there who will love you because of who you are. (even if you aren't really yourself on here, we all like you! and that won't change even if you change or start being more yourself) hopefully i'll be able to think of something more useful later. i might be able to give more concrete advice if you could specify more on what happened (it sounds like something happened but i could be wrong) and i'd absolutely do that but you don't have to say more of course. whatever your favorite sweet treat is, have a virtual one. And uhhhhh how about some hot chocolate and uhhhh thumbprint cookies with peppermint frosting as well :D 

Just wanted to let you know that I will respond as soon as I get the chance <3333

We love you and care about your life! *Virtual hugs if you want them* we're here to talk anytime you want. <3 sending love your way

I just wanted to say that sorry that you're going through a tough time. If you ever need someone to talk to, there is the CB. Heres a virtual hug <3 and I hope things get better 

noo Poinsettiaa :(( i'm so sorry :(( *hugs if you want them* *virtual lemon balm tea*

i'm so so sorry - that sounds terrible. it's really awful that you feel like no one cares about what you're going through :( i promise i care, and i know the rest of the cbers also care, very very much <33 seriously - if you ever want to talk about it, whether you want actual advice or just to vent, both of which are perfectly valid, please let us know <33 i know i'm technically gone/on hiatus but i still check in (even if i don't post anything) from time to time so if you want to get a hold of me i'll most likely see it <33

it sounds like you're definitely going through a very hard time right now and even though the people around you might make it seem like you need to maintain your perfect happy facade, please please know that it's okay to not appear happy and perfect all of the time, especially when you're going through something like that. if there's anyone you can trust irl - i know you probably don't have access to a guidance counselor or anything like that because you're homeschooled, but maybe if there's a relative or friend you trust, you can confide in them? maybe a therapist can help, if possible? (and i'm not suggesting this because i think something's 'wrong' with you - i feel like there's a certain stigma associated with therapy but honestly therapy is for anyone - of course, it isn't necessarily the best solution for everyone but it's just a suggestion if you feel like it's something you might benefit from) i'm sure someone irl would be able to help you through this better than i can <3

i feel like there's always a societal pressure on people - especially girls, but people in general - to always have this perfect, happy front and pretend like nOtHiNg iS wRoNg because you'll be inconveniencing others or something stupid like that if you show any negative emotions whatsoever - oh but you shouldn't complain because oThEr PeOpLe HaVe iT wOrSe - and of course, yes, there are always going to be people who have it worse, and you should definitely appreciate what you have, but at the same time - you wouldn't tell someone they can't be happy because other people have it better, right? and i think it's that sort of backwards logic that's so embedded into our society that keeps us from feeling like we can truly express ourselves without being brushed off and labeled as 'overdramatic' or, like you said, 'weird' or 'stormy' or 'sensitive'.

i don't know what it's like for you irl, but here on the cb, i promise that we all love and appreciate you because of who you are, not in spite of it. after all - you're Poinsettia. you're literally amazing - you're an incredible writer, you're so passionate about the causes you believe in, and you care so, so much for us. all the things that others may see as your downfalls - how you may be too weird or stormy or sensitive - are what makes you so awesome. someone who wasn't sensitive wouldn't care nearly as much about world issues, or those around them - and that's one of the things i admire most about you. and someone who wasn't stormy wouldn't bother with pushing for change and advocating so valiantly for the causes they believe in. and someone who wasn't weird - well, they wouldn't be very interesting, would they? what would they have to write about that was worth reading? 

this is getting very long and i have a lab report i need to finish, so i'll try to end this here. hopefully my ramblings were slightly helpful, and if you get anything from this, i hope you realize that we cbers do care very very much about you, and we love you for who you are, and if you ever need anything, we're here for you <3333

*gives you an optional virtual hug*

*starts crying with you*

Poinsettia, I'm so sorry that you feel this way!!! I have no idea what the hard times you're talking about are, so I can't give advice, but please know that we love you. We don't think you're weird AT ALL. We care, and we want you to know that we care.

I can't give advice, but there is one thing I can do for you, and that is to pray. Let me know if you would like me to pray for you and I will. I most definitely will.

<3 <3 <3  

Anddd, I'm here :/

As everyone has already said, you do have people here at least, who care so totally much about you!! I honestly have no idea what you went through, but it sounds absolutely horrible, and sending so much love and comfort and so many hugs your way <333 maybe make yourself/drink a cup of tea when you're feeling down?? And I'm so so sorry that you don't feel loved for who you are -- I don't know if you're yourself here, but I do promise that I love you, and I'll keep loving you if you aren't fully yourself here and decide to be more yourself/less of a sunny exterior as you said!! (/p)

I think you're right about how people should find some time to care more. I have no idea if this works for you bc I know (or rather think, bc Ig I can't really know anyone on the Internet, but yes pushing all that aside bc I know) you already do this, but when I feel like no one cares at all about me and about other people and stuff, I just try to care enough for everybody. I wave and smile to that truck driver who stopped for me and my classmates to cross the road, I never (ok maybe not never but still) cut corners when we run the mile even though most of my class always does, I pick up trash silently, I smile at the birds in the sky, I take time to appreciate the breeze on my cheek and the feeling of being alive, I just... I mean, Ik that doing this doesn't make people care about you any more, but you feel more fulfilled I think and you feel like maybe people caring about you isn't that big of a deal when you care for yourself so much, that others are missing out and who cares about them??? Ofc, Ik you're an extrovert, and I'm an introvert, soo... we probably have different mindsets. But... yeah. And I don't think you have trouble doing this, but it's a good thing to remember anyways, that no matter what you are an amazing and loving and passionate and lovely person and we love that you're (as pangolin said) "less-than-perfect" and "weird" and "stormy" and "sensitive" -- sincerely!! 

I'm sorry you feel like you have to fake that everything's okay when everything's totally not; that isn't right, and I do second pangolin's suggestion of a therapist/something if you can get one. And if not (or even if), feel free to rant here, whenever you need it, and I promise I'll respond with at least a virtual hug (it's been a busy few weeks). And I'm really really sorry it feels like your life's going up in blazes again rn, and wishing you love and luck to get through that <3333

idk if it would help but maybe look up:

-snakes in hats

-spider paws

-blow-dried cows

stuff like that? Watch comfort TV, read favorite, feel-good books, do anything that you think you need?

Also I remember that piece of dialogue!! Love it!!!

ok I really don't think that this was what you were looking for but I'll just post it anyways. Love you so so much (/p) and hope things turn out alright soon!!!!!! If you want anything/was looking for something that wasn't in here, just ask! *gives you a massive Verd the bear hug* 

YAY so happy that you're feeling better!! <3

I'll be praying (and that is not egotistical or self-centered at all; no worries) :) if there is something specific I can pray for, let me know!

I'm sorry you were going through a tough time but I'm glad it's gotten better!! we're always here for you <3

as for trying to keep yourself from getting worried/scared about things, there's a few things that ideas. I try to get behind the specific fears—beyond a general feeling of anxiety, what are you most afraid is going to happen? is what you're feeling an inordinate amount of stress for something that doesn't have a drastic consequence? also likelihood of the outcome—if there are really bad possibilities, how likely are they to happen? a lot of the time, people's fear gets blown out of proportion and it's hard to get back from that, but it's also sometimes possible to realize how illogical you might be being.

if it's still a big issue, you could try to remind yourself of things you do have that aren't going to change. I know you especially take a lot of joy from the natural world and similar simple and happy things, so focusing on something with a bright side could help. distraction also works sometimes.

I don't know any specifics of how your brain works or the kinds of things you get stressed about, but these are some small tricks that might help a little. I hope it does help in the future!!